Critics, current Feeling, changes, and how it affects me so much
I don't feel reading any onkey fanfics these days...and it makes my love to the pairing is little bit lessen these days... you know why i don't read any onkey fanfics again lately?
yup, because i see that almost every onkey fics are ANGST!
what's wrong with angst?
No..no problem at all! it's good to write angst..it's good reading angst too but for me it affects me so much. i feel like ... not shipping this pairing as hard as i did before. and i'm sad because it affects me that much..too much angst these days. c'mon...my life is already angst. i miss the authors who write onkey because of what they see in onkey, trying to figure out the relationship they had, not writing onkey because of what they felt at the time... like, maybe when they feel sad, they feel writing fics but they put onkey as the character..just because they feel sad and their OTP is onkey.
the authors...like writing broken onkey, then make it jongkey, let onew be lonely and be the miserable onew because he lost key...oh, yeah the bias here...i don't know why they like making onew to be the one who gets hurt the most. is it because of his gentle face? is it because... it fit him if he's being the broken heart one? while key...it's okay, he has jonghyun anyway... feels like they dont care about onew anymore.
yeah, maybe... but i'm tired with these type of characters... for me it becomes like... angst = onew broken! and i don't like seeing or reading broken onew. so these days my bias over onew is gain more and more. I slowly leave onkey fics and focus on onew's schedule and his solo activity...it makes me become MVP more than shawol. it makes me...when i see SHINee i just see onew and just love onew, about the others...i don't care much. see how the fics affect me that much?
I have a lot of problems in the real life. So i run from the real life and go to fandom... when i was down i usually go to find some fics but when i read all the fics sumarry is about onkey angst, it doesn't help me and it makes me sadder than before. so i started thinking....maybe my time to leave these shipping things is about to come. i notice i rarely update my blog, maybe still uploading some onkey videos but...idk, i actually uploaded it because that time i have free time and i did that in hope i can get back the happy feelings...but i guess it doesn't work again lately... it just feels plain now when i uploaded the videos.
in the other hand, i'm more excited everytime i uploaded onew's videos in my own utube channel or update onew's things in weareshining. because... onew never fails to make me happy everytime i see him... he has no fics that can affect me like onkey and the authors did.
seriously i miss a good and fluffy onkey fics in the past...but i guess a good fics for onkey now are angst... so yeah... i better hiatus reading fics now.. and see if it makes me slowly not into this pairing anymore which i scared it will soon...
yup, because i see that almost every onkey fics are ANGST!
what's wrong with angst?
No..no problem at all! it's good to write angst..it's good reading angst too but for me it affects me so much. i feel like ... not shipping this pairing as hard as i did before. and i'm sad because it affects me that much..too much angst these days. c'mon...my life is already angst. i miss the authors who write onkey because of what they see in onkey, trying to figure out the relationship they had, not writing onkey because of what they felt at the time... like, maybe when they feel sad, they feel writing fics but they put onkey as the character..just because they feel sad and their OTP is onkey.
the authors...like writing broken onkey, then make it jongkey, let onew be lonely and be the miserable onew because he lost key...oh, yeah the bias here...i don't know why they like making onew to be the one who gets hurt the most. is it because of his gentle face? is it because... it fit him if he's being the broken heart one? while key...it's okay, he has jonghyun anyway... feels like they dont care about onew anymore.
yeah, maybe... but i'm tired with these type of characters... for me it becomes like... angst = onew broken! and i don't like seeing or reading broken onew. so these days my bias over onew is gain more and more. I slowly leave onkey fics and focus on onew's schedule and his solo activity...it makes me become MVP more than shawol. it makes me...when i see SHINee i just see onew and just love onew, about the others...i don't care much. see how the fics affect me that much?
I have a lot of problems in the real life. So i run from the real life and go to fandom... when i was down i usually go to find some fics but when i read all the fics sumarry is about onkey angst, it doesn't help me and it makes me sadder than before. so i started thinking....maybe my time to leave these shipping things is about to come. i notice i rarely update my blog, maybe still uploading some onkey videos but...idk, i actually uploaded it because that time i have free time and i did that in hope i can get back the happy feelings...but i guess it doesn't work again lately... it just feels plain now when i uploaded the videos.
in the other hand, i'm more excited everytime i uploaded onew's videos in my own utube channel or update onew's things in weareshining. because... onew never fails to make me happy everytime i see him... he has no fics that can affect me like onkey and the authors did.
seriously i miss a good and fluffy onkey fics in the past...but i guess a good fics for onkey now are angst... so yeah... i better hiatus reading fics now.. and see if it makes me slowly not into this pairing anymore which i scared it will soon...