Blood Moon Rising
I read my horoscope today. For the first time in ages. It used to be a religious thing for me, I couldn't live my life without some sort of cosmic exlplanation. It just didn't work.
Feb 21, 2006
"The universe is speaking to you, just not in words. Learn to read all the signals and signs that come your way instead of looking for the obvious or the expected. Listen to your dreams and follow through."
At this point I have no distractions. The old things aren't working and the new ones never did. There should be toothier grins than ever before, ear to fucking ear, but somebody out there's got other plans. Doors have become closed to me and the walls are to thin, I can hear everything. All I know anymore is what we don't have, and what I don't have breathes. He appeared again to me tonight, as soon as my door closed. We almost had a passive aggressive chat. Then I was "rescued" by a new prospect. The forecast is red, blood red, and it ain't gonna be pretty.
Feb 22, 2006
"It's time to take a dare -- especially when it comes to old dreams you've regarded as impossible. The stars want you to go above and beyond what you've deemed possible. Give it a try -- it might just become probable."
Drama, running, tears, crumbling, saviors, quips and darkness. That's where I live. For once, after it all all all all all all all, I wish I had to power to smite the stars if they lied to me. Equal parts at risk to try and not to try. Ambiguity is all around me, I'm swimming in it. Drowning in it and choking on it. There is no right and wrong, and I gave up on concerning myself with that a long time ago. I have no cards left to play, I'm turning invisible and intagible, which is next to not existing. If I'm really supposed to stay here, it won't be as a ghost. Gotta shake things up, gotta find a way first. I'll be missed for a while. I gotta go somewhere and figure some shit out. Clearest way I can say anything at this point.
Feb 23, 2006
"Why not wait and see what happens next before you have to make a decision? After all, you can't make a fully informed choice until you have all the information in hand, and that's just not the case yet."
Not what I wanted to hear. I can't change it this time for some reason. I don't know how to adequately navigate the system. A low red moon means that something bad is about to happen. The mystical dork in me wants to beleive that's true. The 1/4 Native American in me thinks he feels it. I'm done waiting around. The moon and the stars can go fuck themselves. Something's coming, and I want to give it a big ole' hug.
Psychics always predict the bad things.
Feb 21, 2006
"The universe is speaking to you, just not in words. Learn to read all the signals and signs that come your way instead of looking for the obvious or the expected. Listen to your dreams and follow through."
At this point I have no distractions. The old things aren't working and the new ones never did. There should be toothier grins than ever before, ear to fucking ear, but somebody out there's got other plans. Doors have become closed to me and the walls are to thin, I can hear everything. All I know anymore is what we don't have, and what I don't have breathes. He appeared again to me tonight, as soon as my door closed. We almost had a passive aggressive chat. Then I was "rescued" by a new prospect. The forecast is red, blood red, and it ain't gonna be pretty.
Feb 22, 2006
"It's time to take a dare -- especially when it comes to old dreams you've regarded as impossible. The stars want you to go above and beyond what you've deemed possible. Give it a try -- it might just become probable."
Drama, running, tears, crumbling, saviors, quips and darkness. That's where I live. For once, after it all all all all all all all, I wish I had to power to smite the stars if they lied to me. Equal parts at risk to try and not to try. Ambiguity is all around me, I'm swimming in it. Drowning in it and choking on it. There is no right and wrong, and I gave up on concerning myself with that a long time ago. I have no cards left to play, I'm turning invisible and intagible, which is next to not existing. If I'm really supposed to stay here, it won't be as a ghost. Gotta shake things up, gotta find a way first. I'll be missed for a while. I gotta go somewhere and figure some shit out. Clearest way I can say anything at this point.
Feb 23, 2006
"Why not wait and see what happens next before you have to make a decision? After all, you can't make a fully informed choice until you have all the information in hand, and that's just not the case yet."
Not what I wanted to hear. I can't change it this time for some reason. I don't know how to adequately navigate the system. A low red moon means that something bad is about to happen. The mystical dork in me wants to beleive that's true. The 1/4 Native American in me thinks he feels it. I'm done waiting around. The moon and the stars can go fuck themselves. Something's coming, and I want to give it a big ole' hug.
Psychics always predict the bad things.