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What if all of our problems could just go away?
what if you're the problem, because you can't figure out a cure for how you're feeling..?
This last week i have been feeling a tremendous loss.
all week i have been feeling sick to my stomach,
like i was just sick or whatever..
but i'm going to admit something,
I don't think i'm sick at all..
I think its me being depressed trying to blame the sorry on something else.
The truth is, I can't.
The truth is, I don't understand why i am actually letting myself feel like this.
I don't understand why, why i can't just have things the way they used to be..
why i chose to have a job the last month my sister lived in the same house as me..
Spending all my time at work, school, out with friends when i could..
why didn't i spend it with her?
Now i'm sitting here wondering why i'm taking this so hard,
but I should be planning something with her.
I've already tried..
I hate feeling like this,
Like it doesn't matter if i wake up tomorrow morning or not..
but i will, because i will push myself not to give up.
Why is it, that when i'm depressed, I stop eating?
is it so people actually know that i'm not doing so well?
Don't be alarmed by any of this,
Because probably by tomorrow morning i'll be fine.
I'm just stupid thats all..
g'night..
what if you're the problem, because you can't figure out a cure for how you're feeling..?
This last week i have been feeling a tremendous loss.
all week i have been feeling sick to my stomach,
like i was just sick or whatever..
but i'm going to admit something,
I don't think i'm sick at all..
I think its me being depressed trying to blame the sorry on something else.
The truth is, I can't.
The truth is, I don't understand why i am actually letting myself feel like this.
I don't understand why, why i can't just have things the way they used to be..
why i chose to have a job the last month my sister lived in the same house as me..
Spending all my time at work, school, out with friends when i could..
why didn't i spend it with her?
Now i'm sitting here wondering why i'm taking this so hard,
but I should be planning something with her.
I've already tried..
I hate feeling like this,
Like it doesn't matter if i wake up tomorrow morning or not..
but i will, because i will push myself not to give up.
Why is it, that when i'm depressed, I stop eating?
is it so people actually know that i'm not doing so well?
Don't be alarmed by any of this,
Because probably by tomorrow morning i'll be fine.
I'm just stupid thats all..
g'night..