And then I ate Mike's head.
I am technically back to prepregnancy size. I mean I got smaller by a few pounds then after the IUD I shot up about 5-10lbs. I'm pretty sure that was all water weight. And by pretty sure I mean still is.
Either way I've been trying to walk and generally griping about my body upon which Mike responds, "BUT YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL AND LOOK AMAZING."
Until today when he noticed I was wearing maternity pants and made the mistake of asking my cranky ass why.
I pointed out I don't have a single pair of pants that fit. Before getting pregnant most of my pants were getting too small and I have a few pairs that are too large. I do not own a single thing in-between except maternity pants.
AND all of my skirts are getting giant holes in them which means I need to replace at least four hippie skirts.
Which means as many jokes as I like to make about yoga pants all I have left are exercise pants and sometimes I want to feel like a big girl in real clothes.
Worse, I still technically have too much clothing but I'm afraid to get rid of it since I want to reassure myself that at some point I will have clothes.
Because can we talk about the people who like to tell me "my body will come back." ANYBODY REMEMBER I WAS COMING TO GRIPS WITH MY FAT ASS BEFORE PREGNANCY AND MY BODY IS ALMOST EXACTLY THE SAME EXCEPT DIFFERENT DIMENSIONS?! SO FUCK YOU. I AM STILL THIS FUCKING CLOSE TO 200lbs AT 5'4". That means telling me "I don't look like I just had twins" is the stupidest God damned thing I've ever heard. Do I need to be 300+ for you idiots to recognize I am overweight?
And it's not that I'm really all that uncomfortable in my body so much as every time I go looking at new pants I get relatively depressed because it means buying more clothes. I've had to replace all of my bras, now my pants, soon all of my skirts too leaving me with only my tops.
So, yay! My shirts still fit. Yay! Here's to needing to spend hundreds of dollars to replace more of my wardrobe. Here's to shopping. Because I don't loathe shopping.
Personally I'd just prefer to buy my fancy walking shoes and hopefully walk this shit off.
Blargh. I'm tired and cranky.
Either way I've been trying to walk and generally griping about my body upon which Mike responds, "BUT YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL AND LOOK AMAZING."
Until today when he noticed I was wearing maternity pants and made the mistake of asking my cranky ass why.
I pointed out I don't have a single pair of pants that fit. Before getting pregnant most of my pants were getting too small and I have a few pairs that are too large. I do not own a single thing in-between except maternity pants.
AND all of my skirts are getting giant holes in them which means I need to replace at least four hippie skirts.
Which means as many jokes as I like to make about yoga pants all I have left are exercise pants and sometimes I want to feel like a big girl in real clothes.
Worse, I still technically have too much clothing but I'm afraid to get rid of it since I want to reassure myself that at some point I will have clothes.
Because can we talk about the people who like to tell me "my body will come back." ANYBODY REMEMBER I WAS COMING TO GRIPS WITH MY FAT ASS BEFORE PREGNANCY AND MY BODY IS ALMOST EXACTLY THE SAME EXCEPT DIFFERENT DIMENSIONS?! SO FUCK YOU. I AM STILL THIS FUCKING CLOSE TO 200lbs AT 5'4". That means telling me "I don't look like I just had twins" is the stupidest God damned thing I've ever heard. Do I need to be 300+ for you idiots to recognize I am overweight?
And it's not that I'm really all that uncomfortable in my body so much as every time I go looking at new pants I get relatively depressed because it means buying more clothes. I've had to replace all of my bras, now my pants, soon all of my skirts too leaving me with only my tops.
So, yay! My shirts still fit. Yay! Here's to needing to spend hundreds of dollars to replace more of my wardrobe. Here's to shopping. Because I don't loathe shopping.
Personally I'd just prefer to buy my fancy walking shoes and hopefully walk this shit off.
Blargh. I'm tired and cranky.