Sep 28, 2006 11:41
i feel out of place and strung out. i don't know what i want. the whim changes with the hour. is it always gonna be like this for me? i'm serious. i really want to know. that's sad. lost cause. that's me. i was high the other day and i couldn't sleep, and i realized why god puts us here; to take care of each other. it sounds simple, but it's really more complex than that. i saw it all play out in my head. i know that's it. right? but then, why am i STILL here? i guess figuring it out isn't everything. you don't just realize your purose and then fade away. you have to prove it. i don't even know. man o man i feel like crap right now. i don't want to be around people, but i don't want to be alone. i like to sit at the back of the computer labs and look at the screens in front of mine. it seems that myspace is an epidemic... an uncurable disease. i guess i've caught it. and i guess that's also why i sit in the back row, so no one will look upon my screen and know that i fell in the myspace hole with the rest of the world. maybe myspace should run for president. it would probably win. what's that called where you give an object human-like characteristics? we learned it in english. damn.... i can't remember............