Tonight marks the occasion
Finished part one of a hellish fight that is sure to begin.
Parents.....I sit here sneering at my laptop screen...Angry, hurtful thoughts brewing in my head going by time and time again...I try not to clench my fists or hit the keys extra hard..
The nazi that rules this house wants to fight with me because he thinks im turning out like my drug addict asshole scumbag of a brother.
Speaking of shit head...he just came home ..
I hate everyone here...Loath what they do and what they say...
I put up the most fight and rightly so ...I am no ones fucking foot stool...I am no one's fucking rug to walk all over. So the first battle goes to the nazi leader ..it is just the start..I could say so many hurtful things..SO many anger, hate filled words...They will come out in time ..Afterall its not good to waste one's Ace's at the beginning of any fight. Fuck this house and everyone in it..Everyone here is responsible for making and keeping me angry so I will leave it as soon as possible...I know one thing for fucking sure ...When my girlfriend arrives we'll stay in a hotel ...I dont want her tainted by this ...This house ..This "family"...I know now that trust means nothing to my family and I dont give a shit that it does..."this is the way you talk to me?!" the nazi asks ..."I try to be nice to all of you"...I wonder if he chokes on that bullshit when he leaves the room...First of many battles to come..In the end..I know HE will be hurt more than I ..I have no heart, soul or conscience for this family...They havent earned it..They dont care to earn it ..This fight will make me make my clean break from this ...Dictatorship..OH indeed this is the way I will talk to my so called "Father"...Fuck being hurt, fuck being afraid .I am way past that now and now its time for a fight