The Wind of Change Is Much Too Swift
As I recount the events of the day / night for myself Im left wondering certain things.
I've noticed that a lot of things around here have also changed ...perhaps for the best...however perhaps for the worst (its hard to say).
I dropped another piece today (Work slang for made a sale) ..sold a woman that hates Bell on a residential line and on monday im setting up her business line. Yay for another 50 dollars to add onto my pay cheque.
I havent gotten great at my job yet ...but in some ways I dont want to get better just yet ...I want to relax into my role and really get it down pact. This way I'll be increasing my productivity at the best time. I hope everything works out despite my injured feet every day. Im assured that this will only happen for the first week or so...I know I dont want to try working on saturdays yet As I need the time right now to recover from the weeks agenda. Keeping such a positive attitude was hard as hell when I didnt have any clue where I was walking / supposed to be walking. My leader at work always tells me im making a lot of progress here and there yet I still yearn to be better. I know it will take a lot of work and im sure that eventually I'll be what they call in the office "a high roller" (those people consistently make 75 dollars a day).
So far its the best job with the quickest way to acquire plenty of great experience. As our boss put it a couple days ago "the thing I love about this job is, its a touch of reality...You dont want to put your best effort into what your doing you wont get shit"
Our boss is amazing..So funny and able to motivate and make you think really hard about what your doing at the same time. He told us in one such meeting "If you want to advance be prepared to work your fuckin ass off, cuz there is no magic fairy that will come and make you rich and everything will be great. I know. I've been waiting for the bitch!"
A lot of times what has kept me coming back for work everyday has been the people..At work its like I am family..Readily accepted and if I need anything I can always count on someone to lend a hand. For my first real job so far it is hard as hell. But Its nothing compared to what other people have gone through therefore no matter how much I may want to be elsewhere im still going to grind through the shit to get to the center of it so I can start hitting all my goals. Im glad for the chance I have at this company and im going to make the most of it. Afterall, I believe I should concentrate on my situation when it comes to jobs more rather than just hanging out with my friends. As much as I love them all and enjoy their company I know they will understand that Sacrifices need to be made and I need to start working on getting my goals started / finished. It's something that everyone needs to do and therefore I would hope they are so understanding. And as I listened to the events of tonight from upstairs I cant help but wonder what exactly happened when I was out working on creating a better me. Though I sometimes want to know another part of me would rather just walk away from it all.
And like the old saying goes, we all have two demons in our body that are constantly fighting. One good. One Bad.
Ultimately the demon that will win is the demon we feed the most.