I wonder what it will feel like in the rain ..here's hoping
Im sitting here listening to my Japanese guitar music ...Its pretty awesome..and it now just changed to Rockell - in a dream I love ..also another great dance song ..
I just finished talking with my beloved g/f and I have secured an apartment for my hopeful departure for china. She also tells me they need someone at her company...Fuckin-hello business opportunity.
I told her to see if she could get me in there somehow. As I think of the possibilities it almost makes me vomit (in a good way ...over excitment for me can lead to vomit or feelings that in a moment I will vomit)
I dont want to get too hopeful but that would just be soooooooooo perfect ...So I wouldnt go to china to teach ...thats ok ..I could go there and work instead ...that'd be just as cool ..and just as hard ..But I am up for it ..My first job I learned the ins and outs of that shit hole coffee shop in two weeks...Totally BOOYAH ...I Owned that bitch ..By the way ..Isnt a " BA " only like university type shiznit?? anywho ..
Had a dream about grapes ..I ate a couple grapes, chewed them ..spit them out ..it apparently means I will have a comfortable life (how, why, when and sometimes how you ask ..I have no fuckin clue). I think days have special feelings to go with them. Cuz sometimes Either when the sun is coming up or once when I was on the bus somewhere I just felt really good ...the time on the bus was just after it finished raining and it felt really sweet ...I dont know why ..or where I was going for that matter but I remember that moment that I had that feeling and its burned quite naturally into my brain. I sometimes think going to china will be like Being Dropped right into ground Zero. It'll be a culture shock like no other but like a marine I'll take it head on. Im going to make sure that when I get a job over there im going to give 'em hell :)) WHOAH...I got bitched at by my aunt for taking a year off ...that pissed me the fuck off ..she was givin me some shit about how if I was her kid then she would give me 2 days to find a job and if I didnt then I would be kicked out of the house ...She just doesnt understand the circumstances ...No one realizes that I will fight tooth and nail for every inch of success ...If there is little chance of success then I will be there just as fuckin quick.
Whats that? culture shock? different work ethic altogether? dropped into a place where I have no fuckin clue how to find my way around? Hehehehehe Bring it the fuck on...I'll establish my beach head and I'll put every ounce of my being into my job. it wouldnt be the first time that I was in over my head and it sure as hell wont be the last ...Muhahahhaha...We'll see though ...I dont know how often I will be on the net and such once im over there...I dont know if I will have this laptop or if it would even work over there ...I'd probably have to save my money and buy a better laptop over there ..Then get my friends to send me games through the mail lol ..Helllooo Killswitch..I will however check my email so I will make sure to do my best to report through livejournal and or talk to the odd person on msn ...hehehehe Here's hoping for the best ...Here's praying to god for the best chance in the world ...Here's thanking my parents for givin me hopes and dreams and thanks to all my friends whom I wont forget any of them and thanks to all my past g/fs that taught some harsh lessons that made me the kind of b/f that I am today and most of all thanks to my current g/f who gave me a strong heart and the iron will that wont ever be broken no matter how many tears I shed or how much pain I endure...Here's thanking my god for making me the most stubborn son of a bitch on this planet.
P.S.
Dont forget the airborne troopers motto "Death from above"