I've been dreaming of the past

[thehippiepunk]

Strange thing, last night I had a dream with my very first boyfriend (and very first EX boyfriend) Rick Rollins. I've been reading over my eighth grade journal here as of late, but I figured the dream would've happened the night I was reading - wouldn't you

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[doctorcasey]

Haha, sorry about dying in the emails. I checked our emailing history, and the last time we exchanged messages was December 2007. I think I just got lazy. Yep, I'm living with my parents still. I'm studying to pass the real estate exam, got my certificate from TN TREES in November. I also might get a part-time job soon at this place called the Hands-On Science Center, managing the lights or sound effects for the plays. A friend of my sister's works there, so it's pretty much a sure deal if I accept.

Hmm... do you think you might have been more acclimated to social environments back then because you were forced into them five days a week, seven or eight hours a day? In the adult world, you're not forced to be in a building of 2,000 kids on a regular basis.

And honestly, I don't think there's much to judge you about or laugh at you for, but considering the company we had at Morrison... well... yeah. I still remember that time in 7th grade English where Michael Wright was picking on you for some reason, but then said something along the lines of 'Never mind, you're not worth it' and quit. That was an extremely cold thing to say, not to mention completely undeserved. What, exactly, was his basis for thinking you're not worth much? You just blinked and stared ahead in an unfocused sort of way in response. And wasn't there a time in 9th grade English, Mr. Spurlock's class, that some girls made you give them your role in some play? I remember you saying 'I don't care', but there was a defensiveness about it which made me think the transaction in question wasn't perfectly fair.

It's a sick thing, bullying. To make a person feel uncomfortable in their own skin, to do your best to make sure an already weakened person never manages to enjoy basic self-respect... bullies can be like a virus to a person's mind. I think it's definitely something which needs to be given more attention. If I was a teacher I'd be relaxed and easygoing about most things, probably even a pushover, but bullying is definitely something I would crack down on. Any bullies in Mr. Casey's class would get their asses handed to them.

Ah yes, Kara Youngblood. I always liked the girl, but then, as with most Morrison people, she pretty much disappeared from sight and mind past 8th grade. Speaking of which, I never had a single class with Jeremy during high school. Doesn't that suck? We had lunch together the first quarter of Sophomore year, but that's the closest we ever came. I still remember towards the end of 6th grade, where he came running to me all excited because we were going to be in the same class for 7th... damn, I'm getting nostalgic.

Do you remember Kelly Natella? She was a girl that only went there during kindergarten. I had a major thing for her, but I doubt most people remember her since she disappeared so early. I was actually involved in two Morrison relationships myself. The first was Jody Tigue in kindergarten, which you might or might not remember. The second was Sarah Rhoady in third grade. Yep, Sarah and I were an item for all of two or three weeks. She broke up with me because I was too disinterested in the relationship. I skipped out on our dates in favor of playing tag with my guy friends. Seriously, she'd be like, "Let's go on a walk across the playground!" And I'd be like, "But we're playing tag!" She tried to compromise by making some sort of schedule (Monday and Wednesday would be dating days, for example, the rest would be free), but I just wasn't that romantic at nine. Yeah... those were good times. Sarah and I were good friends in second grade and third, but we never really spoke after that.

[thehippiepunk]

You know, to be honest I don't remember Michael Wright saying that - though it could have been possible. We had a thing where I was easy to make fun of but we were also kinda friends... because I remember having some genuinely good times with him. He gave me grief, but most of the time he was so funny that it didn't really last long...

The ones who made my life most miserable, I think, were the 'preps.' Even Chris Floyd was just annoying and we've since come past that and have a cordial relationship as opposed to the way we were. But people like Wes Johnson early on, Wes fucking Williams, Jon Creek, Nikki Griffith and that bitch Amanda Locke. I wanted nothing more than to one day knock them off their high horses. I honestly wished horrible things on them back then - beer bellies, etc. XD And even now I look back and it makes me angry how they felt as though they were entitled to treat me that way just because Mommy and Daddy had money and status. Yet for a long time I wanted to fit into that world... Molly McFadden was another one, you remember her? I'm not normally this way, but she thought she was really something when honestly I think I was better looking than she could have dreamed of being. Her personality made her look the way she did, no doubt, it's an inside-to-outside thing.

I remember Kelly. I think I remember you and Jody being together... I don't remember Sara however. I think I pushed 3rd grade out of my mind. You remember Chase White, right? I think pretty well second grade up until the time he left Morrison I tried to block out because *he* made my life more miserable than anyone... calling me fat when he really could've fed an entire starving family in Africa for a year. Too bad I didn't have such comebacks back then...