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I would like to appologize to all of you. Mostly for my drinking habit. I shouldnt drink it doesnt help anything, but i dont know i just felt really depressed these last couple months. Im going to try my hardest to stop and just live life the way i used to. I loved the old me. I was fun. Now im just a trainwreck getting worse and worse. I feel that everyone screws me over and life is just looking at the next thing to laugh at me for fucking up at. I dont feel im compitent in many areas. I feel like a void of nothingness wanting so much more then anyone but never being able to have it. I dont feel happy, sad, angry, get butterflies very often. When i drink i feel stuff. I might make an ass of myself i might get really down and depressed, but i get to feel emotion, i get to feel it hard.
I am sorry to all of you that tell me to stop drinking that try to help me and i just yell at you. It shouldn't happen your all amazing and i should cherish that you even talk to me. I need to stop being so hard on myself and be a better person and be there for all of you when you need it. I need to be a better friend to you all and cherish what we have more so then other things. I love you all and im going to just live life now and have fun.
I am sorry to all of you that tell me to stop drinking that try to help me and i just yell at you. It shouldn't happen your all amazing and i should cherish that you even talk to me. I need to stop being so hard on myself and be a better person and be there for all of you when you need it. I need to be a better friend to you all and cherish what we have more so then other things. I love you all and im going to just live life now and have fun.