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I know there is little sympathy for me in regards to what happened. I really am trying. I didn't take the easy way out. I could have simply waited for a fight and used that as an excuse. I am so sorry for what had to happen. This decision affected not only me, but also my friends and family. It was not something I came about quickly. I brooded for many a day on it, and this seems to be the hardest thing for all to accept. I didn't want there to be signs of an upcoming storm, because I wasn't sure yet. Once I made up my mind, would it have been the right thing to do, to prolong it? I wish there were an easy button for this, for both parties. I care about Andrea. I do not, and will not, regret any of the time I spent with her. My true hope is to remain friends with her, not just because it is selfish for me to do so, but because she means so much to my family and my closest friends as well as me.
This came as a surprise to all, and some suggest that the underlying cause is not just my own issues, but also of those around me. One of my closest friends is getting married next year, and while it is no surprise, it is a big deal. I wish them both nothing but happiness. I am not "freaked out". I am not moving away, even though that is an option, and probably the easiest one. Another easy option would be to completely remove her from my life, and simply not try to be friends. I am beginning to think I am just not ready for a serious relationship. It would have been selfish of me to accept her 100% and give ANY less than she did.
I truly believe I made the right decision, and I am really sorry if you do not agree. You are my friends, my support system..my family. I really hope this causes no rift between us all.
This came as a surprise to all, and some suggest that the underlying cause is not just my own issues, but also of those around me. One of my closest friends is getting married next year, and while it is no surprise, it is a big deal. I wish them both nothing but happiness. I am not "freaked out". I am not moving away, even though that is an option, and probably the easiest one. Another easy option would be to completely remove her from my life, and simply not try to be friends. I am beginning to think I am just not ready for a serious relationship. It would have been selfish of me to accept her 100% and give ANY less than she did.
I truly believe I made the right decision, and I am really sorry if you do not agree. You are my friends, my support system..my family. I really hope this causes no rift between us all.