What are friends for? (a public post)
Because of the semi-seriousness of this post you may be wondering why it is public. Well there is a reason that reason is so a certain person can read it, to be more specific, so that Susan can read this. It is actually kinda of a letter to her.
First off, thanx a lot. Best friends...yeah...thats a nice concept. Since when do best friends Lie to eachother? Since when do they go behind their back and stab them, multiple times too. It wasnt that bad when it happened the first time, plus you didnt lie to me the first time. Yeah, you cant help who you like, but you CAN help who you lie to about liking this person. It's just fucked up. Everyone is going to say "stop being to dramatic" well you know what, fuck you. i have been hurt SO many times and then when people say they dont want to hurt me and KNOW that it is hurting me even more as they say that...its just not right. How many times have people done this type of thing to me? and you, of all people, know best what i feel like. I have come to you for so many things and i have been here for you for just as many. I do believe that i brought this upon myself. If it were not for me, you two would not have met, would not have talked. You would have had no reason to lie to me, no reason to fuck me over again. Everyone feeds me the same bullshit that they are there for me and they arent like everyone else, and up until now i believed you, i thought i could trust you. But lying to me pushed me over the top. What good is a wasted life like mine? where i am only trying to help others and feeling miserable. When i think off all the chances i have had to do myself in it makes me sick. The failed attemts send a chill up my spine. The scars give me a bit of satisfaction everytime i look at them. New ones may appear but no matter what, these ones now will send me into an inner frenzy. At the moment i have no more to say. just know that you are not on my good side, and my wrists are torn. though blood has faded away the marks will stay true to me. Hopefully for the rest of my life. if not, i guess i will have to make new ones.
First off, thanx a lot. Best friends...yeah...thats a nice concept. Since when do best friends Lie to eachother? Since when do they go behind their back and stab them, multiple times too. It wasnt that bad when it happened the first time, plus you didnt lie to me the first time. Yeah, you cant help who you like, but you CAN help who you lie to about liking this person. It's just fucked up. Everyone is going to say "stop being to dramatic" well you know what, fuck you. i have been hurt SO many times and then when people say they dont want to hurt me and KNOW that it is hurting me even more as they say that...its just not right. How many times have people done this type of thing to me? and you, of all people, know best what i feel like. I have come to you for so many things and i have been here for you for just as many. I do believe that i brought this upon myself. If it were not for me, you two would not have met, would not have talked. You would have had no reason to lie to me, no reason to fuck me over again. Everyone feeds me the same bullshit that they are there for me and they arent like everyone else, and up until now i believed you, i thought i could trust you. But lying to me pushed me over the top. What good is a wasted life like mine? where i am only trying to help others and feeling miserable. When i think off all the chances i have had to do myself in it makes me sick. The failed attemts send a chill up my spine. The scars give me a bit of satisfaction everytime i look at them. New ones may appear but no matter what, these ones now will send me into an inner frenzy. At the moment i have no more to say. just know that you are not on my good side, and my wrists are torn. though blood has faded away the marks will stay true to me. Hopefully for the rest of my life. if not, i guess i will have to make new ones.