is this what u wanted?

[thegrimrper]

she makes life seem so pointless
memories keep hauting me

the person who i loved more than anyone else combined
truly abandoned me
she promised me with words of safety, took the life out of me
and after all that...left me to die away inside

all that...and nothing now
life really is pointless

and if it truly is God's will
whos to say that God wont abandon me after my love for him, like she did?

God...she truly makes life seem so pointless

i want to break down and start crying
cut my wrist deep
and see whether i spill more blood or tears.

i want to empty out all the substances of my existence
destroy everything beautiful in my sight
and then scream out at God
"is THIS what u wanted?"