Seany~ So far for the last couple of days i've been setting my alarm for 1:30 so that i can call you..i hate making excuses but here i go: so far each and every night my alarm has either failed to go off through some error that i made or the hand of God, or i actually have woken up at that time all three nights and just turned it off and went back to bed, not remembering it the next morning. I've been so tired recently (probably because of not eating) that i don't think i'd be able to stay up that late on my own without anything majorly distracting me. As much as you are worth every ounce of my health and well-being, someone else, whether it be my sub-consious self of God, seems to think differently. I don't know what to do. I still am dreaming about you every night. Last night i dreamed that we went to homecoming together (and you should go next year cuz you looked nice in a suit..it was black with random red ribbons) but for some reason my parents also went (lol) so that sucked..we mostly spent our time talking out on a park bench. I wish that we really could just go to a park and talk on a park bench for hours. I miss you so much..and it's really hard sometimes not being able to talk to anybody about you. Sam keeps going on about how much she misses her boyfriend but i haven't bothered to tell her that i am in a very similar situation..would she really understand..probably not, seeing as you're 20 minutes away from me and not in Canada, but that makes it 20 times more frusterating. ....my parents.... Anyways, just wanted to explain why i haven't been calling you at night, i will continue to try every night, maybe we'll have success after awhile. Don't stay up past 2 for me, i won't call you later than 1:45. Try and enjoy your summer. I could go on about how much i miss and love you but i know that you're feeling the exact same heartaches and the same longings so i won't go into repetitive details...just do know that i miss you, and love you. Just know that please. Each hour drags on unmercifully.
So far for the last couple of days i've been setting my alarm for 1:30 so that i can call you..i hate making excuses but here i go: so far each and every night my alarm has either failed to go off through some error that i made or the hand of God, or i actually have woken up at that time all three nights and just turned it off and went back to bed, not remembering it the next morning. I've been so tired recently (probably because of not eating) that i don't think i'd be able to stay up that late on my own without anything majorly distracting me. As much as you are worth every ounce of my health and well-being, someone else, whether it be my sub-consious self of God, seems to think differently. I don't know what to do. I still am dreaming about you every night. Last night i dreamed that we went to homecoming together (and you should go next year cuz you looked nice in a suit..it was black with random red ribbons) but for some reason my parents also went (lol) so that sucked..we mostly spent our time talking out on a park bench. I wish that we really could just go to a park and talk on a park bench for hours. I miss you so much..and it's really hard sometimes not being able to talk to anybody about you. Sam keeps going on about how much she misses her boyfriend but i haven't bothered to tell her that i am in a very similar situation..would she really understand..probably not, seeing as you're 20 minutes away from me and not in Canada, but that makes it 20 times more frusterating. ....my parents....
Anyways, just wanted to explain why i haven't been calling you at night, i will continue to try every night, maybe we'll have success after awhile. Don't stay up past 2 for me, i won't call you later than 1:45. Try and enjoy your summer. I could go on about how much i miss and love you but i know that you're feeling the exact same heartaches and the same longings so i won't go into repetitive details...just do know that i miss you, and love you. Just know that please. Each hour drags on unmercifully.
Goodbye for now,
~Laura
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