Feb 17, 2007 19:34
WARNING: My computer died again, so this time we replaced the whole damn thing. New tower. It seems good, and I like it, but I haven't put the Microsoft package on yet, which means that this entry could be way, way less than perfect. My apologies to any reader.
Anyway, here I am again, realizing that I need to get back into the habit of writing. I write for my health and for me, dammit. I should do it. I love doing it. So why haven't I lately? I think I felt a little betrayed by my dear old LiveJournal, though there's no one but myself to blame. Isn't it horrible that I feel I paid a price for that honesty? Well, obviously I continue to work on shutting down old entries. No access past a certain point anymore. No getting to know me without knowing me. None of that bullshit anymore; it's entirely too invasive, and I thought I was a big enough person to handle it, but I'm not.
You get burned so many times that it starts to scar, and you look for ways to prevent the burn again. Sadly, one of those ways will be my lj. I think that's why I've stayed away; whether consciously or not, I think it is. I knew I needed to reevaluate this journal. I did, and I didn't like my conclusions... So I made two decisions instead of one. Be much more careful about what I open up for the floor and to whom and the consequential decision to stay away. I hadn't planned on the latter.
So here's to the start of a reformed reformation. To write generally for the public, to write personally for my friends, to write specifically, in detail, and the most personal of personal for myself.
I just felt that I owed this journal an explanation. Perhaps I owed it to a future self, to remind myself why--and in as much that as to bluntly admit and explain it to any reader.
Perhaps I'll write a story tonight. I'm ripe with emotion, and I received a pleasant reminder that I love this. I should do this. So here is where my story begins.
about writing,
friends,
journal issues