OMG
*screams* the stress is becoming unbearable....why oh why does it have to be like this?
i turn 21 in 29 days, i graduate in 43..
i have 20 credit hours of classes each week...plus who knows how much in homework--average =40
i work up to 20 hrs. a week....plus the 40min-an hour commute just to get there...
and i have a boyfriend who lives 3 states away!
GAAAAAAAAAH!
i want to quit everything so badly. EVERYTHING. i want silence, the kind that isn't actually silence, it's stillness. i want to get out of here..i'm tired of being in bellingham. i'm tired of school, i'm tired of work, and i'm tired of constantly being away from my boy and feeling nervous about all of that, i'm tired of my view of myself and stupid social expectations of women that i DRASTICALLY try not to fall into...but can't help it.
i want time to myself without the constant nagging of school in my mind. work is something that i'll have to accept, i just want a different job :p
i want to focus..to finish assignments early and just be done with them..but that's so difficult for me most of the time.
blah, this is gonna go by fast...who knows if i'm ready for it.
i turn 21 in 29 days, i graduate in 43..
i have 20 credit hours of classes each week...plus who knows how much in homework--average =40
i work up to 20 hrs. a week....plus the 40min-an hour commute just to get there...
and i have a boyfriend who lives 3 states away!
GAAAAAAAAAH!
i want to quit everything so badly. EVERYTHING. i want silence, the kind that isn't actually silence, it's stillness. i want to get out of here..i'm tired of being in bellingham. i'm tired of school, i'm tired of work, and i'm tired of constantly being away from my boy and feeling nervous about all of that, i'm tired of my view of myself and stupid social expectations of women that i DRASTICALLY try not to fall into...but can't help it.
i want time to myself without the constant nagging of school in my mind. work is something that i'll have to accept, i just want a different job :p
i want to focus..to finish assignments early and just be done with them..but that's so difficult for me most of the time.
blah, this is gonna go by fast...who knows if i'm ready for it.