Feb 28, 2006 09:58
she’s amazing. really. she’s smart, funny, insightful, genuine, caring, straightforward, and she teaches me to be all of those things. i don’t know what I’d do without her. she understands me better than anyone else. she knows what goes on in my life; she CARES what goes on in my life. she never judges me, and never expects perfection. in fact, she expects to notice a few things i’m blind to and help me fix them.
when i’m doing something stupid or rude, she doesn’t hesitate to point it out, because she has my best interests at heart. but for every one of those instances, i know there are three more things that i do that are annoying or stupid that she realizes are a part of me, not necessarily things i can change or am ready to change. and she accepts those things as part of my personality. she knows the difference between the two. we recognize that we both have faults, but we don’t hold them against each other. we try to be honest about things we see from our perspective, even when the truth hurts.
that’s what friendship is about, what real friendship is based on - honesty and straightforwardness. we are always open with each other, and if one of us doesn’t tell the other one something, it’s either because we promised someone else or the timing wasn’t right. eventually tho - all the cards get laid out on the table. (she ca read my mind anyway…) i don’t care anymore what other people’s misguided perceptions of me may be, because i know if she knows what’s going on - and i know - then no one else really matters.
we may not always agree on things but we’re always civil in our conversations. not that we always get along perfectly, but we always work things out as they happen. that’s another part of friendship, confronting and forgetting. too many of my other friendships are made up of all confrontation, or all ignoring that any problem existed. i can’t blame it on everyone else tho, i know a lot of it is my fault. i can’t expect others to be open with me if i’m not open with them. i guess i just don’t see the need to be sometimes. you only need one great friend, and i’ve got her. i respect her immensely for her ability to have convictions and act on them. i don’t bring things up with other people, because it’s not worth the frustration . . . you’ve got to pick your battles in life. and i’m finding more and more that i’m willing to back down. not everything is grounds for a fight.
i love the fact that i can call her any time of day or night, and she’ll be there for me. I love that I can tell her anything and everything…and that i do. i love how open we are with each other. she makes me laugh harder than anyone, and she lets me cry more than anyone else would. without her, i’d have spent many nights crying myself to sleep without a soul in the world to talk to. (and i’d have about 4 pages less on my phone records…) we’re on the same wavelength; we can relate to each other. and i don’t know anyone who can put up with me like she can.
i can’t say that the transition from college to home and back again would have been easy… because i’m not sure it would have even happened. she was there for me through more of the hard times - and she never backed out. i can’t imagine my life without her in it - she makes me a better person. she has shown me myself more clearly than i have ever seen myself before.
i'm thankful for the chance i have to get to know her. i've been blessed having her in my life. wuv you gorgeous, and you truly are. . .
a friend will bail you out of jail...
you're best friend will be sitting beside you, saying "good idea, genius . . ."