Too conflicted
Can't sleep right again. I never really notice how empty this bed is if I'm sleeping on the couch.
It's like Europe again, but different.
It's not like when I shared this bed every night, but I can still feel the difference.
Tonight I gave one of the bussers at work the "this is my tiny little life" speech and, as scary as it is, part of it felt true.
...and by now everyone is thinking "why don't you just quit your fu!@ing job already?!" The money isn't the issue, it's the people. Hm, in hindsight, that too may be a sack of crap. For all I know, the select few I regard as friends may just see me as one big joke.
To Hell with this! This is why I don't update in the very-early morning hours, before sleeping. I'm too conflicted.
It's like Europe again, but different.
It's not like when I shared this bed every night, but I can still feel the difference.
Tonight I gave one of the bussers at work the "this is my tiny little life" speech and, as scary as it is, part of it felt true.
...and by now everyone is thinking "why don't you just quit your fu!@ing job already?!" The money isn't the issue, it's the people. Hm, in hindsight, that too may be a sack of crap. For all I know, the select few I regard as friends may just see me as one big joke.
To Hell with this! This is why I don't update in the very-early morning hours, before sleeping. I'm too conflicted.