ok.. life is in a continuous motion... must... go... on...

[thegreatleah]

really, things have gotten(were all along, really) out of my control. A number of people I REALLY care about might be going down right now. People I've known since I was a wee lass. There's nothing I can do about this. All I can say is that these are genuinely GOOD people. Some of the only people I've met that I can rely on through the bad or good, who have been there for me for years no matter what. It really kills me to think of these people going away. they weren't doing anything to anyone, they weren't doing anything to deserve what might happen... but all I can do now is be there for them when the time comes.
I can't say anything else, I really want to, but I can't. there's a couple situations I have to keep my mouth shut about, but my heart is out to them, that's all there is to it.
I was sorta out of it yesterday, I had a bit of a breakdown with the realization that the few people I have left that I hang out with might be going away, and all I have left is jeremy. I'm thankful for having jeremy, I am, but.....damnit. I've thrown all my other friends away by reclusing myself from drama and stress....like that worked. they're still my friends, I just feel weird coming to them now and being like " hey, what's up????"

anyways, enough of my self-pity. I have to actually attend class today. see if I can't do something to pass this semester. peace.