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You know what, I wasn't even going to post any of this. I had it typed once before, but deleted it because I don't want to start anything else. But I really feel the need to vent, so here I go anyways:
I was just as much at fault for the overall result of this weekend, and I take my share of the blame. I do not feel right though, in being irritated with others but never letting them know. Especially since most of the time they don't even realize/understand that what they're doing is upsetting me.
So yes, Friday I was really irritated. However I said my piece and then did my best to stop dwelling on it, if I said anything beyond that ...I'm very sorry and I didn't know (and still am not sure) when/why or how I did that.
Saturday I'm pretty much pissed at myself over. Everyone in the room will know why. I feel terrible that MY crap contributed to messing up other people's good time, however, all you had to do was say 'hey, I really want to go see people, I'll meet up with you guys when you're done' or something like that, and LEFT. We couldn't have held that against you. Hell *I* wanted to say 'Fuck it' and leave (But by then, to have wasted all that time and to NOT wear it would have been worse to me)!
I admittedly was pissy Sunday, because after I'd been saying all weekend (and beforehand and on the ride up ect ect), though it would appear no one listens to me at all, that I couldn't hang around late because I needed to be home. My whole family is away and the animals were last fed on FRIDAY NIGHT/EARLY SAT MORNING because of this. I was worried and needed to get home and feed my babies, but things happened and we didn't get out until after 3. Now reguardless of the why's and what for's of the situation, that fact is this, if ANYTHING had happened to my babies because of this lateness, I would be so pissed off and guilty (because they were DEPENDING on me to take care of them, and I'd told mom several times we'd be leaving around noon/1-ish, since that was the plan) that all hell would have broken loose. While I know there were people less than pleased with me at that point in time, shit like that will eventually, one day, pass by. I would never ever have forgiven whomever I decided was responsible (no matter what the truth might be), end of story. It's silly and I know it's unfair, but it's also not fair to those animals and they're my BABIES. They come first as they are like family and that's just how it goes, I cannot control that my family left them, but I said I'd be back around a certain time and that was what we were all assured of, and it didn't happen by a long shot...
As it is, I went to check on Spike and he's dead. I BELIEVE it's due to my brother's neglect, as it's HIS pet, but I cannot help but wonder....Izzy is also acting weird and refuses to eat anything, I think she's just cold, but this is starting to worry me as well. On top of that goes my stupid CAR. Today is NOT THE DAY.
So yes. Interesting weekend.
I think my favorite parts were watching MAD TV with Mandy Sat night and getting home (and watchin' mah DVD! woo!). :/
But yes, I'm sorry to Faith and Trista for the part I played in messing up the weekend for you both, but you guys have to say something to me directly, I suck at taking hints and stuff, so just tell me what's wrong and how I can make it better when these things happen, that way I can try my best to fix it.
Mandy: <3 We need to start planning/mapping out this armor! >.< No repeats of this at AZ! And I'm working on finding a way to screencap the hell out of these bitches!
BTW,*points and laughs* Save the Queen is TWO HANDED! *runs away before she gets clobbered* XDDD
PS. I'm FAT. ;o; I need to work out more if I'm going to start on all these jrock cosplays.....and Basch....and..and....I'm fat. D:
I was just as much at fault for the overall result of this weekend, and I take my share of the blame. I do not feel right though, in being irritated with others but never letting them know. Especially since most of the time they don't even realize/understand that what they're doing is upsetting me.
So yes, Friday I was really irritated. However I said my piece and then did my best to stop dwelling on it, if I said anything beyond that ...I'm very sorry and I didn't know (and still am not sure) when/why or how I did that.
Saturday I'm pretty much pissed at myself over. Everyone in the room will know why. I feel terrible that MY crap contributed to messing up other people's good time, however, all you had to do was say 'hey, I really want to go see people, I'll meet up with you guys when you're done' or something like that, and LEFT. We couldn't have held that against you. Hell *I* wanted to say 'Fuck it' and leave (But by then, to have wasted all that time and to NOT wear it would have been worse to me)!
I admittedly was pissy Sunday, because after I'd been saying all weekend (and beforehand and on the ride up ect ect), though it would appear no one listens to me at all, that I couldn't hang around late because I needed to be home. My whole family is away and the animals were last fed on FRIDAY NIGHT/EARLY SAT MORNING because of this. I was worried and needed to get home and feed my babies, but things happened and we didn't get out until after 3. Now reguardless of the why's and what for's of the situation, that fact is this, if ANYTHING had happened to my babies because of this lateness, I would be so pissed off and guilty (because they were DEPENDING on me to take care of them, and I'd told mom several times we'd be leaving around noon/1-ish, since that was the plan) that all hell would have broken loose. While I know there were people less than pleased with me at that point in time, shit like that will eventually, one day, pass by. I would never ever have forgiven whomever I decided was responsible (no matter what the truth might be), end of story. It's silly and I know it's unfair, but it's also not fair to those animals and they're my BABIES. They come first as they are like family and that's just how it goes, I cannot control that my family left them, but I said I'd be back around a certain time and that was what we were all assured of, and it didn't happen by a long shot...
As it is, I went to check on Spike and he's dead. I BELIEVE it's due to my brother's neglect, as it's HIS pet, but I cannot help but wonder....Izzy is also acting weird and refuses to eat anything, I think she's just cold, but this is starting to worry me as well. On top of that goes my stupid CAR. Today is NOT THE DAY.
So yes. Interesting weekend.
I think my favorite parts were watching MAD TV with Mandy Sat night and getting home (and watchin' mah DVD! woo!). :/
But yes, I'm sorry to Faith and Trista for the part I played in messing up the weekend for you both, but you guys have to say something to me directly, I suck at taking hints and stuff, so just tell me what's wrong and how I can make it better when these things happen, that way I can try my best to fix it.
Mandy: <3 We need to start planning/mapping out this armor! >.< No repeats of this at AZ! And I'm working on finding a way to screencap the hell out of these bitches!
BTW,*points and laughs* Save the Queen is TWO HANDED! *runs away before she gets clobbered* XDDD
PS. I'm FAT. ;o; I need to work out more if I'm going to start on all these jrock cosplays.....and Basch....and..and....I'm fat. D: