its been a while

[thegrandcanyon]

well much has happened since the last time i wrote in this thing.
i took the rest of the year off from school
trying to find a full time job
and now i fell for a girl.
shes awesome in so many ways
her personality and her looks are incredible
but the thing is i dont even think i have a chance
shes to good for some one like me
way out of my league
sometimes i dont even know why i try
shes got a long distance relationship going on
and im happy for her
shes got things going for
but oh well
i want it to happen so bad
but i just dont see it

i know in the past id fuck girls and thats it no relationship what so ever but i know i wouldnt do that to rachael i just couldnt do that to her. shes one of the first kids i talked to when i moved here and i had a small time crush on her but it passed. i just dont know what to do anymore i dont know if i should just give up or keep trying. but i guess ill see what happens peace and love to the crew and to the rest of you people.