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Got a pretty decent sleep the night before last. Yet I woke up very exhausted and was really drained all day. I went in at 5am. I was really emotional all day. I was planning on going home after work to get mail. I was so depressed and tired that I asked to leave 2 hours early. At noon, I got on the bus and could barely keep my tears in. I couldn't wait to see my mom. Just thinking of seeing her and being able to unload was making my cry. I got off at In n Out and my mom picked me up. I tried to maintain so i didn't just burst in crying so I stared out the window while she told me about her morning and asked what I wanted to eat. I couldn't hold it in any longer. I cried and explained things to her and she just drove around giving me advice. It felt good to tell her how i feel and for her to tell me it would be okay and that she's been in my spot before. We got chronic taco and rented Arrested Development and went to my parents place. We watched tv and ate. I took an hour nap, which felt good, but made me all groggy. My mom asked if I wanted to take a drive down the coast and get ice cream. So we left and I drove. We ended up in Newport Beach and got gelato and drove back. It was nice driving on PCH with the windows down, listening to sad 70s soft rock together. She knew what i needed. When we got back she drove me home and gave me some money which I needed. I hate taking money because it feels like i'm not really living on my own. I can only do it because she helps me. She doesn't mind though and always finds reasons to do it other than just because, like getting an A in english haha. yeah yeah, im a mama's boy.
I got home and walked some late movies back to the store. On my way to the store, I was listening to my ipod and feeling pretty good. A guy stopped me and said he was a poet and needed money to help feed his family. He asked if i would critique a poem of his. He said it was dedicated to whoever out there I wanted, and it was called "Confusion". I actually really liked it and it really applied to my life and I was so touched to hear it. I gave him a few dollars and went along my way feeling like the universe was all right. When I got to my block, Matthew was driving by and told me to get in the car. I did and his sister was with him! It was so exciting to meet one of his siblings. We parked and went to my place and had a beer and talked. He wanted to take her to the bar to play pool so we went to Sweetwater and had beers and dominated the jukebox with 60s soul. Matthew kept buying whiskey shots that everyone laughed at when i took them, cause all the hair on my body would stand up after. But I didn't drink too much. We went to Hole Mole after and then walked back. I didn't get to bed till midnight and had to be up at 4 this morning.
I went in to work at 5 today. I felt better today which was a relief. Work went by pretty fast, and I was really tired. Now i'm going to take a nap. its nice out today
I got home and walked some late movies back to the store. On my way to the store, I was listening to my ipod and feeling pretty good. A guy stopped me and said he was a poet and needed money to help feed his family. He asked if i would critique a poem of his. He said it was dedicated to whoever out there I wanted, and it was called "Confusion". I actually really liked it and it really applied to my life and I was so touched to hear it. I gave him a few dollars and went along my way feeling like the universe was all right. When I got to my block, Matthew was driving by and told me to get in the car. I did and his sister was with him! It was so exciting to meet one of his siblings. We parked and went to my place and had a beer and talked. He wanted to take her to the bar to play pool so we went to Sweetwater and had beers and dominated the jukebox with 60s soul. Matthew kept buying whiskey shots that everyone laughed at when i took them, cause all the hair on my body would stand up after. But I didn't drink too much. We went to Hole Mole after and then walked back. I didn't get to bed till midnight and had to be up at 4 this morning.
I went in to work at 5 today. I felt better today which was a relief. Work went by pretty fast, and I was really tired. Now i'm going to take a nap. its nice out today