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I am so worried about so many people right now. It seems to be the time that lives fall apart and lately, it's been scaring the shit out of me. I see all this pain and suffering and I wish to god I could stop it. But nothing I do helps. I wish so many people had better lives and I wish so many people could be laughing right now. I'm scared that people are going to do stuff they'll regret and I'm scared that people will do stuff I'll regret letting them. I wish I could stop people from making bad decisions.
It's hard to believe that just days ago I was depressed about the road my life had suddenly taken. I thought no one out there could feel my pain. I hate the way m life has gone and I hate the way that it still is and I hate the way that I can't fix it and I hate the way that it bothers me and I hate the way that there's no one to talk to and I hate the way that it has to be. But what I hate even more, is actually feeling sorry for myself when I watch others go through so much worse.
I hate life for dealing such shit to such great people. And I hate myself for not fixing it.
I love you all.
It's hard to believe that just days ago I was depressed about the road my life had suddenly taken. I thought no one out there could feel my pain. I hate the way m life has gone and I hate the way that it still is and I hate the way that I can't fix it and I hate the way that it bothers me and I hate the way that there's no one to talk to and I hate the way that it has to be. But what I hate even more, is actually feeling sorry for myself when I watch others go through so much worse.
I hate life for dealing such shit to such great people. And I hate myself for not fixing it.
I love you all.