this is the closest you'll get to an apology
throughout my life, people have entered it, made their mark and left. agh, its almost as if people meet me, and then purposely hurt me. its dumb. it doesnt take hurting me to make me remember you. you know who you are. i know who most of you are thinking of, and thats alright, think what you want, i dont care anymore. You should know that for the while that i knew you, you were the greatest person id ever known. i can never think of you like that again. i see you as nothing but a mere person i pass by on the street. i wish to forget everything that ever happened with us. i never want myself to come into your mind again and know that from this moment on, you'll never be thought of by me again. If we ever see eachother again, pass by me like i dont exist, i dont want you to acknowledge me anymore because i refuse to acknowledge you as a respectable human being. i need you to know that yeah, i did things i regret, but nothing has ever felt as bad as you. you were the biggest mistake ive ever made and if i could, id take it back in a heartbeat. its as if i dont know you anymore...quite honestly i dont want to know you anymore. it was amazing the moments that you could have me falling head over heels for you, and then the next id want nothing to do with you. now ive learned that you're just a fucking liar. You move from person to person to keep the excitement....know that there are those of us who aren't like that. You know, the ones you leave behind...we're the ones left with the scars and the memories that come back to haunt us for months...what id give to get you out of my head.
to be honest, i dont know why i just wrote all of this. i needed to vent.