the boy who blocked his own shot
While listening to Deja Entendu the other night I realized how poignant a song "the boy who blocked his own shot" is. I love songs that, no matter what your doing or where you are, take you to a place where your mind is completely clear. It can be a somewhat melancholy feeling sometimes, but maybe thats part of what is so attractive about it. It is definitely as distinct a feeling as you can feel.
Nostalgia can often be the sign of a great relationship. The boy who blocked his own shot is a perfect example of this emotion. I've contemplated quite a bit as to the meaning of the song, and have concluded that there are several different situations that it could be based upon. Feel free to tell me if I missed one; one of the best things about BN's music is how ambiguous it is.
First of all, the most obvious explanation would be the singer made what he considers a mistake that ended a relationship. He regrets this mistake. This is what I thought when I first heard the song. However, like most of their music, you find new connotations every time you listen to it.
Upon paying closer attention to the lyrics you could derive that perhaps no mistake was even made. What would make more sense to me is that the mistake was in ending the relationship. Obviously whoever he ended it with hates him for it as is illustrated in the line "you can tell me how vile i already know that i am."
Sometimes you end a relationship without putting enough thought into it, or sometimes you have put a ton of thought into it and know exactly what your doing, but still regret it. What is worse is when you both still harbor feelings for each other but end it for another reason. In my opinion that should never happen, if the affection is still there then you should be able to get through whatever problem arises. When you are in a serious relationship these endings can be brutal, but I personally would much rather have someone be honest with me than try to fake their feelings. It can take awhile to get over someone. Sometimes you don't.
If you have ever had a great relationship come to an end, then you almost can't help but feel some nostalgia while listening to the song.
Here are the lyrics just incase you were wondering:
If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget... You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
And just so there is no confusion, I am quite happy with my current relationship.
Nostalgia can often be the sign of a great relationship. The boy who blocked his own shot is a perfect example of this emotion. I've contemplated quite a bit as to the meaning of the song, and have concluded that there are several different situations that it could be based upon. Feel free to tell me if I missed one; one of the best things about BN's music is how ambiguous it is.
First of all, the most obvious explanation would be the singer made what he considers a mistake that ended a relationship. He regrets this mistake. This is what I thought when I first heard the song. However, like most of their music, you find new connotations every time you listen to it.
Upon paying closer attention to the lyrics you could derive that perhaps no mistake was even made. What would make more sense to me is that the mistake was in ending the relationship. Obviously whoever he ended it with hates him for it as is illustrated in the line "you can tell me how vile i already know that i am."
Sometimes you end a relationship without putting enough thought into it, or sometimes you have put a ton of thought into it and know exactly what your doing, but still regret it. What is worse is when you both still harbor feelings for each other but end it for another reason. In my opinion that should never happen, if the affection is still there then you should be able to get through whatever problem arises. When you are in a serious relationship these endings can be brutal, but I personally would much rather have someone be honest with me than try to fake their feelings. It can take awhile to get over someone. Sometimes you don't.
If you have ever had a great relationship come to an end, then you almost can't help but feel some nostalgia while listening to the song.
Here are the lyrics just incase you were wondering:
If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget... You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
And just so there is no confusion, I am quite happy with my current relationship.