i dont want to do my work
Perhaps....it's all this stress from homework, term papers, and finals.
Maybe it's cuz I'm continually listening to feist's new album.
Or it could be the past weekends which have been crazy and fun but not satisfying.
Or cuz i see Jackson frequently.
I cant believe im going to say this but lately, feist's songs have been making me want to go on picnics and fall asleep on the grass next to someone. I want to go on bike rides, take trips to the east bay, do homework, go out....
this city single gal business is fun. because you go out, and you meet people everywhere. but out of all the people i meet, none of them truly catch my eye. theyre all just fun.
the only person who has is lanky, quiet, has a big bushy beard, and works with kids. i see him every monday and wednesday. i sometimes am a bad tutor and rush my kids through whatever we're doing just so i can say "hey wanna go out side!?" and of course..they always say yes. and although i love playing ball tag or soccer, i also enjoy sneaking glances at jackson. (marlina thinks im a creep and i should just say hi - but thats a whole different story)
but anyways, as marlina and i were discussing the other day, that whole scene is fun...but it gets old after a while.
so far, its been a month of it. and im already ready to settle down.
i guess its cuz im not that "player" type of girl.
When i dated brian, i wasn't truly ready ( i wouldnt even say we dated we just went on several dates). Sadly, I let him know that i wasn't really feeling it and he was so, we stopped seeing each other. But now, I'm more comfortable with everything and how things are. And its like "ok NOW IM READY!" But i think its kinda too late. he was sorta boring anyways.
why is it always that way?
you are persued when you dont want to be.
and you arent when you finally feel like you want to be.
I know ill get over all of this by the end of finals. It's just that sometimes in the mist of this crazy life, i stop and stare at the couples who walk by and wonder what it would be like to be in something like that again.
nothing serious. nothing intense.
just simple. fun. and good.
back to the five page paper on a book i hardly read.....
Maybe it's cuz I'm continually listening to feist's new album.
Or it could be the past weekends which have been crazy and fun but not satisfying.
Or cuz i see Jackson frequently.
I cant believe im going to say this but lately, feist's songs have been making me want to go on picnics and fall asleep on the grass next to someone. I want to go on bike rides, take trips to the east bay, do homework, go out....
this city single gal business is fun. because you go out, and you meet people everywhere. but out of all the people i meet, none of them truly catch my eye. theyre all just fun.
the only person who has is lanky, quiet, has a big bushy beard, and works with kids. i see him every monday and wednesday. i sometimes am a bad tutor and rush my kids through whatever we're doing just so i can say "hey wanna go out side!?" and of course..they always say yes. and although i love playing ball tag or soccer, i also enjoy sneaking glances at jackson. (marlina thinks im a creep and i should just say hi - but thats a whole different story)
but anyways, as marlina and i were discussing the other day, that whole scene is fun...but it gets old after a while.
so far, its been a month of it. and im already ready to settle down.
i guess its cuz im not that "player" type of girl.
When i dated brian, i wasn't truly ready ( i wouldnt even say we dated we just went on several dates). Sadly, I let him know that i wasn't really feeling it and he was so, we stopped seeing each other. But now, I'm more comfortable with everything and how things are. And its like "ok NOW IM READY!" But i think its kinda too late. he was sorta boring anyways.
why is it always that way?
you are persued when you dont want to be.
and you arent when you finally feel like you want to be.
I know ill get over all of this by the end of finals. It's just that sometimes in the mist of this crazy life, i stop and stare at the couples who walk by and wonder what it would be like to be in something like that again.
nothing serious. nothing intense.
just simple. fun. and good.
back to the five page paper on a book i hardly read.....