Suck up and be nice.
Ooo.. :) Next monday I'm going into uni to do a study for a friend that'll determine how much of a psychopath i am!
:) His name is mem and he has a tatoo of a tiger on his calf. Neat!
Justin came over tonight and cooked me dinner. Really nice pasta with fresh basil and feta and olives. All in all life has taken another weird turn. I love having David back, but i feel like over the past 6 months that he's been gone i've opened up so much and become a really confident positive kinda person. Now that he's back im shrinking back again. But its not his fault and its not a bad thing.. I think i should just get on with it from here. try and get out lots like i did when he was away.
I'm lovin the friends I've made over the past 6 months. And hey Phil, i still have your Betty blue dvd. Haven't watched it yet. think you need to come over so i get inspired to watch it!
I really want to get back into writing this story that i started a while ago. its really really really good. Like i read it and forget that i wrote it and am excited. Then again, all the greatest critics find meaning in the telephone book. *shrug*
My dad called tonight to see if i wanted to come over for dinner. I said i didn't because i was hosting a party of my own. Which was a lie. I really didn't want to go to his house. I feel like because our bodies and mindsets pretty much change over every 7 years, the person i was when i really hated my dad is now gone. I see my past self as more of a brother or friend that has died, and i want to be respectful and honour all the things the younger me was passionate about. Because when i was young i knew a lot more. I had a better perspective. So im not hateful any more, but i cant be great mates with my dad remembering all the shitty things he did as i was growing up. People tell me to get over it, but i think letting go of something you're passionate about just so your life is smooth and easy is also sad. I wanna be passionate and i wanna remember who's hurt me in the past, so i know not to wear my heart on my sleeve around them again.
So yeah. Justin and i are evolving :D Feels very smooth and safe and easy and fun. Which for me has always been really hard to find. We never end up being hugely emotional, but it feels so damn right.
Questions questions. I sure haven't properly taken stock of my life lately. Its almost Christmas though. My first solo one when it comes to rentals.
I hope everyone can catch up over the holidays.
I'm not being dramatic, i really do love you'll.
x
:) His name is mem and he has a tatoo of a tiger on his calf. Neat!
Justin came over tonight and cooked me dinner. Really nice pasta with fresh basil and feta and olives. All in all life has taken another weird turn. I love having David back, but i feel like over the past 6 months that he's been gone i've opened up so much and become a really confident positive kinda person. Now that he's back im shrinking back again. But its not his fault and its not a bad thing.. I think i should just get on with it from here. try and get out lots like i did when he was away.
I'm lovin the friends I've made over the past 6 months. And hey Phil, i still have your Betty blue dvd. Haven't watched it yet. think you need to come over so i get inspired to watch it!
I really want to get back into writing this story that i started a while ago. its really really really good. Like i read it and forget that i wrote it and am excited. Then again, all the greatest critics find meaning in the telephone book. *shrug*
My dad called tonight to see if i wanted to come over for dinner. I said i didn't because i was hosting a party of my own. Which was a lie. I really didn't want to go to his house. I feel like because our bodies and mindsets pretty much change over every 7 years, the person i was when i really hated my dad is now gone. I see my past self as more of a brother or friend that has died, and i want to be respectful and honour all the things the younger me was passionate about. Because when i was young i knew a lot more. I had a better perspective. So im not hateful any more, but i cant be great mates with my dad remembering all the shitty things he did as i was growing up. People tell me to get over it, but i think letting go of something you're passionate about just so your life is smooth and easy is also sad. I wanna be passionate and i wanna remember who's hurt me in the past, so i know not to wear my heart on my sleeve around them again.
So yeah. Justin and i are evolving :D Feels very smooth and safe and easy and fun. Which for me has always been really hard to find. We never end up being hugely emotional, but it feels so damn right.
Questions questions. I sure haven't properly taken stock of my life lately. Its almost Christmas though. My first solo one when it comes to rentals.
I hope everyone can catch up over the holidays.
I'm not being dramatic, i really do love you'll.
x