Fine, I'll talk
Alright, I guess I should start out with saying this. I use to play a game called Furcadia.
It caused me a lot of pain in the past. I met two guys from that game. One of them was the guy that I dated for five years and the other was just a really really good friend but he still ended up hurting me by telling me a huge lie and turning his back on me.
It had only been a few months after I left Patrick that I met a nice Aussie guy. We will just call him Xxys for now.
Well Xxys and I got to be pretty good friends. One night I opened up to him about my past with Pat and then I also opened up to him about my crush on Egon/Harold and how for many many years it had been..... something of a comfort to me.
So he gets this idea of role playing as him for me. Well more or less telling me stories that have him and I involved in them. Depending on my mood they would be silly stories or spicy stories. But we had a lot of fun with them and they were part of a healing process for me.
A few months later I found myself falling for Xxys.
This is where he lied to me. He said that he just wasn't interested in finding someone right now. A week later he starts to date someone and then every time I tried to talk to him, he just turned his back on me and said he was busy. He didn't have time for me anymore. He would make excuses of saying that he was working and I quickly found out that he was playing games on Steam with this girl.
I left Furcadia for good. I just couldn't take it anymore. The hurt was and still is pretty deep.
There, I came clean....
Bash me...
Unfriend me..
I don't really fucking care...
Just let me cry...
It caused me a lot of pain in the past. I met two guys from that game. One of them was the guy that I dated for five years and the other was just a really really good friend but he still ended up hurting me by telling me a huge lie and turning his back on me.
It had only been a few months after I left Patrick that I met a nice Aussie guy. We will just call him Xxys for now.
Well Xxys and I got to be pretty good friends. One night I opened up to him about my past with Pat and then I also opened up to him about my crush on Egon/Harold and how for many many years it had been..... something of a comfort to me.
So he gets this idea of role playing as him for me. Well more or less telling me stories that have him and I involved in them. Depending on my mood they would be silly stories or spicy stories. But we had a lot of fun with them and they were part of a healing process for me.
A few months later I found myself falling for Xxys.
This is where he lied to me. He said that he just wasn't interested in finding someone right now. A week later he starts to date someone and then every time I tried to talk to him, he just turned his back on me and said he was busy. He didn't have time for me anymore. He would make excuses of saying that he was working and I quickly found out that he was playing games on Steam with this girl.
I left Furcadia for good. I just couldn't take it anymore. The hurt was and still is pretty deep.
There, I came clean....
Bash me...
Unfriend me..
I don't really fucking care...
Just let me cry...