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So...2nd day on the job and I've already entertained sexual thoughts about a manager. He's by all definitions of the word unattractive. Think Smegol.
As some of you can attest, this isn't the first time I've taken unusual interest in an authoritative figure. Whichever cerebral corner that's triggering my lust is really dysfunctional, because I've never felt a strong attraction to anyone who wasn't significantly older and unnervingly intimidating. And these people don't have dishonorable intentions at all...don't do anything to provoke sexual thought. And for most people, probably couldn't if they tried. And I'm seeing stars. It's so fucked up.
So this guy, Mr. Manager Man...kept saying "I'm your friend, ...why are you nervous? I'm going to stand here until you're not uncomfortable anymore. You can look me in the eye without worrying... " But I couldn't. My eyes are like an overhead transparency for emotional content. The worst possible scenario would be his recognition of my psychosis. I wasn't about to let up.
As some of you can attest, this isn't the first time I've taken unusual interest in an authoritative figure. Whichever cerebral corner that's triggering my lust is really dysfunctional, because I've never felt a strong attraction to anyone who wasn't significantly older and unnervingly intimidating. And these people don't have dishonorable intentions at all...don't do anything to provoke sexual thought. And for most people, probably couldn't if they tried. And I'm seeing stars. It's so fucked up.
So this guy, Mr. Manager Man...kept saying "I'm your friend, ...why are you nervous? I'm going to stand here until you're not uncomfortable anymore. You can look me in the eye without worrying... " But I couldn't. My eyes are like an overhead transparency for emotional content. The worst possible scenario would be his recognition of my psychosis. I wasn't about to let up.