Life
I've had a huge absence of writing in my life for maybe the past 6 years or so, and if I don't start soon I feel as I my brain will be overloaded with subject matter and it is in my best personal interest to start the slow outleak that has been stored away for so many years.
I'm still unsure of where I will record this new chapter of my life; whether her on livejournal, a notepad that I may keep in my back pocket, or wherever. That decision hasn't been made as of yet.
I have changed a lot subsequently since the last entry in this blog. I have matured, lived, experienced, and loved.
Major happenings that I can think of since:
-met a girl who has changed my life. Emily Barge. She has helped me grow so much and I am utterly in love with her.
-got devastatingly depressed and sick with mono and alcoholic hepatitis which altogether caused my withdrawal from HSC. This was the beginning of what would cause great change in my life.
-lived independently summer 07 as I bought a truck, payed insurance, payed rent as I lived with friends in Norfolk. I lived with some cool guys, and some that I ended up losing respect for as I saw their true personalities. At the same time other relationships grew immensely.
-Death of Allen West. Since I have been alive this has been the changing moment of my life and the decisions I make. Allen's death caused me and many others a great deal of pain. I considered Al my best friend at school. I looked up to him so much as he had the amazing ability to bring joy to others. His death greatly changed my outlook on life and my existence in it. I learned that my body is the only one I have, and that in order to keep it as an efficient running machine I have to look after it. Before I lived a little to much in the moment and was very abusive to myself. Not to say living in the moment is bad, but there is a way to live in the moment in order to live for the future. I could honestly write a book about this experience and what I learned from it and maybe someday I will.
-Family. There comes a time when your parents become your friends. The summer not living with them helped that a lot. In order for me to get along with my parents I needed independence. Now we respect each other as human beings and not just a respect out of family ties.
-Friends. My friends are what keep me sane. As is life, things change. It's not like high school anymore where we were all together all the time. People have all gone there separate ways. At first this was very hard for me to swallow because I had, and still have, a very hard time balancing that out. I guess its just my personality for everyone to get along and be happy, but of course this doesn't happen. Se la Vi.
-Nathan. My brother met and just recently married his souls counterpart. I could not be happier for them. They have reinforced in me that true love is real, and that I have been lucky enough to find it.
-Future. I've pretty much decided that I will go into the Peace Corps after I am done with school. I need to get out of my comfort zone and begin to learn from others. I am so small in comparison to everything else and its time I start seeing how others live and what I have to offer them.
So there's just a quick summary of some big stuff on my life plate.
Hopefully I don't get caught up in myself and the world and stop writing again, that would be tragic.
I'm still unsure of where I will record this new chapter of my life; whether her on livejournal, a notepad that I may keep in my back pocket, or wherever. That decision hasn't been made as of yet.
I have changed a lot subsequently since the last entry in this blog. I have matured, lived, experienced, and loved.
Major happenings that I can think of since:
-met a girl who has changed my life. Emily Barge. She has helped me grow so much and I am utterly in love with her.
-got devastatingly depressed and sick with mono and alcoholic hepatitis which altogether caused my withdrawal from HSC. This was the beginning of what would cause great change in my life.
-lived independently summer 07 as I bought a truck, payed insurance, payed rent as I lived with friends in Norfolk. I lived with some cool guys, and some that I ended up losing respect for as I saw their true personalities. At the same time other relationships grew immensely.
-Death of Allen West. Since I have been alive this has been the changing moment of my life and the decisions I make. Allen's death caused me and many others a great deal of pain. I considered Al my best friend at school. I looked up to him so much as he had the amazing ability to bring joy to others. His death greatly changed my outlook on life and my existence in it. I learned that my body is the only one I have, and that in order to keep it as an efficient running machine I have to look after it. Before I lived a little to much in the moment and was very abusive to myself. Not to say living in the moment is bad, but there is a way to live in the moment in order to live for the future. I could honestly write a book about this experience and what I learned from it and maybe someday I will.
-Family. There comes a time when your parents become your friends. The summer not living with them helped that a lot. In order for me to get along with my parents I needed independence. Now we respect each other as human beings and not just a respect out of family ties.
-Friends. My friends are what keep me sane. As is life, things change. It's not like high school anymore where we were all together all the time. People have all gone there separate ways. At first this was very hard for me to swallow because I had, and still have, a very hard time balancing that out. I guess its just my personality for everyone to get along and be happy, but of course this doesn't happen. Se la Vi.
-Nathan. My brother met and just recently married his souls counterpart. I could not be happier for them. They have reinforced in me that true love is real, and that I have been lucky enough to find it.
-Future. I've pretty much decided that I will go into the Peace Corps after I am done with school. I need to get out of my comfort zone and begin to learn from others. I am so small in comparison to everything else and its time I start seeing how others live and what I have to offer them.
So there's just a quick summary of some big stuff on my life plate.
Hopefully I don't get caught up in myself and the world and stop writing again, that would be tragic.