Kink Bingo fill: music mix for prompt Ageplay
Been thinking of doing an Ageplay mix for
kink_bingo since last summer; decided when I started actually pulling tracks together to narrow it down to a particular span of temporal-cultural experience and save other spans for later. I recognize that teenage feeling, even though my adolescence bore little resemblance to most of those described in the narratives within--I was neither an athlete nor much of a delinquent, and I had no significant romantic entanglements nor sexual encounters with anyone my own age or older until I was nearly out of the age range. Probably just as well--that's a lot of drama to pack into not very many years, and I have made up for some of it since. I also recognize the historical contingency of the teenage experience, and the cultural, geographic, and economic variation it demonstrates (some of that variation is illustrated here). The feeling still resonates.
Content notes: alcohol and drug use; 'characters' under the age of 18 engaging in sex with same- and cross-generational partners; dubiously consensual sex (coercion and consent under compromised conditions); mentions of self-harm and suicide; bullying, nonconsensual public humiliation and violence, gang and police violence, possible allusions to rape and murder, 'character' death.
1. "John Paul's Deliveries", Nathan [alcohol use]
campfire fuelled by some old fence
and skies like Planetariums
and I'm too shy to kiss your neck
so I kick dirt at Curtis
2. "Thirteen", Wilco
won't you tell me what you're thinking of?
would you be an outlaw for my love?
3. "Friends Forever", Old 97's
twelve years after five
are years we're lucky to survive
hang in there friends forever
in memory far away
4. "The Sporting Life", The Decemberists [humiliation]
I fell on the playing field
the work of an errant heel
the din of the crowd and the loud commotion
went deafening silence and stopped emotion
5. "Night Reconnaissance", The Dresden Dolls [bullying]
and we hide from the cunts
on our night reconnaissance
steal flamingos and gnomes
from the dark side of the lawn
6. "Record Body Count", The Rheostatics [bullying, attempted suicide]
but a red tie and school-grey slacks
doesn't blend in with the grass
as the teacher was changing class
7. "To Sir with Love", 10,000 Maniacs feat. Michael Stipe [possible teacher-student sexual interaction]
a friend who taught me right from wrong
weak from strong
that's a lot to learn
what can I give you in return?
8. "Unprincipled", Spring Breakup [definite teacher-student sexual interaction]
I'll miss you like Jesus
I'll miss you like sin
when I'm hanging around in detention again
when we read about the Franklin expedition
I'll miss you when I'm learning loooooooooong division
9. "I Know What Kind of Love This Is", Dar Williams, Lucy Kaplansky, and Richard Shindell [dubiously consensual sex]
I know what kind of love this is
after all I was there when we made it
I know why I did what I did
to end a lifetime of wallflower shade
10. "Cottonmouth", Throwing Muses [alcohol use, attempted coercion of younger parties by legal adults]
the more he likes me, the more I drink
I think the more I drink the more he likes me
11. "Dead Honey", Die Mannequin [drug use, suggestive self-harm and violence]
arms are heavy
scars on every
one from teenage chains
12. "How Old Are You?", The Fits ("Sixteen Going on Seventeen" from The Sound of Music)
you need someone older and wiser
telling you what to do
I am seventeen going on eighteen
I'll take care of you
13. "Young Love", Spring Breakup
and I will never ever let you go oh no
no one else will ever understand me nearly so well
all the rest of the world can go to hell for all I care
you are my everywhere
14. "Star Witness", Neko Case [drug use, 'character' death]
hey pretty baby get high with me
we can go to my sister's if we say we'll watch the baby
that look on your face yanks my neck on the chain
and I would do anything to see you again
15. "We All Fall Down", Danny Michel [gang violence; police violence, probably racially motivated; 'character' death]
spotlights on car alarms
and bullets lodged in frightened arms
that fight the tears and grind the gears
and circle 'round
16. "Howl", Florence and the Machine [poetic violence]
be careful of the curse that falls on young lovers
starts so soft and sweet and turns them to hunters
17. "Young and Tragic", Dead Man's Bones
I wish that we were magic
so we wouldn't be so young and tragic
18. "Nineteen", Old 97's
nineteen is not the age of reason
I didn't have a reason
for setting you free
19. "Fast Car", Tracy Chapman [alcoholism]
the city lights lay out before us
and your arm felt nice wrapped round my shoulder
and I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling that I could be someone, be someone, be someone
20. "Gotta Get Over Greta", The Nields
I left that wild side long ago
my husband holds me close and he will never know
21. "That Teenage Feeling", Neko Case
all the love we had
all we ever knew
did they fill me with so many secrets
to keep me from loving you?
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