Jan 01, 2004 00:17
happy new year! mine was great. i spent it with joal and we just sat around and napped like our lazy selves. we also went to see the cat in the hat [which was super cute] and then went to dinner at ruby tuesday's.
i love him. he just seemed kind of annoyed and bored with me tonight. or maybe now i'm just noticing.
tomorrow i'm not sure what's going on. i'm not sure if i'll go to joal's house tomorrow because that's when his band practice is and i don't want to bug him and the guys.
egh, i'm such a stupid girlfriend. help me !
i'm going to read the novel mona lisa smile before i see the movie because i always think it's better that way. i'm really excited about the movie though, just because it happens to have 4 of my favorite actresses in it and i've heard it's great. and if it isn't great, i don't think i'll care because i'll be too spellbound by all of the girls and julia roberts's charm. she's so wonderful; i wish i was like her.
i've read 5 books already this break and i'm still working on a few more. i love reading so much... no wonder i have no friends !
i've been meaning to start writing again. i think i really will this time though, because i know i always say that. i'm just disappointed because i know i have the brain and creative capacities to write and be where i want to be with that, and i also have the time, but i keep blaming my laziness and counterproductiveness on writers' block or lack of interesting ideas. i'm frustrating myself. i don't get why it's so hard to just get out a pencil and write. i guess i'm afraid of disappointing myself. i have always hated not liking what has come out when i have a creative spurt- it makes me feel like such an idiot. *sighs*
goodnight.