Trying
I dont like failing... miserably at that, but... I just cant seem to do any better... whether because I'm just not motivated enough, though I do study, because I'm just plain not good enough, I dont care.
I hate failing.
And at the moment I am very angry with Music. As she has shafted me for nearing 19 years now. She has romanced me and had me fall madly in love with her. Yet, for the majority of my life she has given me few tools to reach her. Mostly all I can to is follow friends, true Musicians, to the mountain-top. That makes me sad... becuase no matter how much I love music I cant ever be an legitimate part of it... I wish I were an artist...
but... I guess... I do love being friends with ligitamte painters, writers, singers, dancers, players, and actors. And being a Riker can be a good thing... it is a good thing. And thats who I am.
mtm
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5:45
ok ok... i just want to clear something up. I am VERY happy right now. Life rocks, and I'm VERY happy. LJs are good for talking things out. This weekend rocked. I LOVE THE RAIN! I love you all. mtm