Today was a shitty day! (Long LJ tonight)
Well I woke up this morning and went to school, today was an early dismissal, so we only had 4th, 5th, and 6th period. I got to school and Ryan told me that he was only staying for 4th period because all he had to do was turn something in to his 4th period teacher so yeah! I told him I wanted to leave when he left, because frankly I didn't want to be at school. Though I started to debate about actually staying at school, Kady walks up to me and tells me about her rough night last night, so I told her that she is coming with Ryan and I after 4th period. I told her that she was going to come over and hang out for a while, because she didn't want to go home. Anyways, after 4th period we all went to McDonald's to get some breakfast. Thank you again Ryan. We came back to my house and ate breakfast, then Kady and I were hanging all over each other, then I remembered that she was dating someone, so I started to back off. I also started to fall asleep, goodness I feel so bad about that. So after while Ryan had left and then when I really started falling asleep Kady had left. I am so sorry for falling asleep on Kady. So after Kady left I got up and went to the computer to see who was online. I started talking to Marie, and she told me that she had a nervous breakdown because of stupid shit that happened this last week. So I tried to work things out with the person that she despises, and well it seemed to start going very well. Until Marie said she wanted to talk to Tina face-to-face. Tina said no, so Marie kept saying that she had to do it for herself. So then I finally got fed up with all of it, and said, I am done, do whatever the fuck you please, to both Marie and Tina. I was tired of it. I couldn't take it anymore. Then Marie told me whatever then, and go be her friend. She then signed off, so with that being said I think I may have lost Marie as my friend. That really sucks. Marie is fucking awesome. So anyways, I continued to talk to Tina. I asked her if Nic and she wanted to come over to my house and hang out. So I walked over to there house, and then walked them back to my house. We sat at my house for a bit and listened to music. We then went back to Tina's house and we sat there talking at listening to music. Then Tina's friend Kera called and asked us to come hang out with her at McDonald's. We did! I got to see my Joan when we went. I was so happy! So we went to McDonald's and then Kera and Nic started talking about Godfather's Pizza, and she took Nic to Godfather's to get an application. So Tina and I decided to go back to her house. We sat there for a good hour or two just talking. It was nice. Then she started showing me a bunch of pictures that she took. I saw one of Dion, where he was pole dancing. I started to cry. I really miss Dion, but I have to get over it. I mean the whole break-up process seems to be going bass ackwards (ass backwards)! I mean usually the first couple of days after the break-up I do all the crying and the missing him! It wasn't until tonight that I started crying and missing him! So I decided to tell Tina that I was going home. One, because I wanted a cigarette and two, I needed some time to think to myself. I did a lot of thinking, and I am trying to get over Dion. Also, I am hoping that Marie and I will still be friends. If you are reading this Marie, I am sorry. Anyways, I just got off the phone with my dad about 20 minutes ago, he told me he isn't going to be able to make it up here for Christmas, I wanted to cry. I feel like my whole life is crashing down into pieces, as each day goes by. I sound so emo right now, but it is all true. Anyways, I am off to bed now. I need to sleep, I don't want to think about this day anymore! Have a good one everyone!