83 weeks ago
So today I promised myself I would finally get my car inspected first thing this morning. But instead I went back to sleep til 1 and since it was no longer "first thing" in the morning, I decided that was my way out of my promise to myself. SO now it is still overdue and also the weekend. Damn.
I tried to find a dress at Kohl's for the wedding on Sunday but no luck. Maybe I'll try again first thing in the morning. hah.
Spent some time with my sister tonight unexpectedly. I can't stop loving her.
I feel like my birthday will suck this year. I don't know why. I am planning nice things. But I'm sure I will feel weird and alone. I feel alone when I am alone and in a crowd. But not with just a few people. I wonder where that threshold is. Like 12 maybe? Yeah probably 12. I think I'll wear my new jean skirt that I haven't taken off in days. Maybe I'll just keep it on til then. Maybe I'll just change it first thing in the morning...
When internet bill pay works, it works wonders. When it doesn't work, it makes your life so complicated and frustrating. I wish I could pay someone to make me not think. I know that doesn't make sense.
My new bookcase is in. My cat ruined my new futon cover. She is so dumb. She doesn't learn anything I teach her. I knew I shouldn't have gotten the only one that was sleeping. Oh V, how you make my life so much harder. Poor kitty.
My cruise is paid off. In 14 weeks I will be lounging in a beach chair in the sun by the buffet with a frozen margarita in one hand, a corona in the other, and a sexy, half-naked man attached to my lips. Well, probably no man involved... but we'll see. Still a very good scenario.
It is always interesting to learn something new about life. It'll be so interesting to see how this thing with Dan unfolds. We will find out for real if the world is just and good or if it is just a random mess of happenings. I do hope it is just and good. I do miss him.
I tried to find a dress at Kohl's for the wedding on Sunday but no luck. Maybe I'll try again first thing in the morning. hah.
Spent some time with my sister tonight unexpectedly. I can't stop loving her.
I feel like my birthday will suck this year. I don't know why. I am planning nice things. But I'm sure I will feel weird and alone. I feel alone when I am alone and in a crowd. But not with just a few people. I wonder where that threshold is. Like 12 maybe? Yeah probably 12. I think I'll wear my new jean skirt that I haven't taken off in days. Maybe I'll just keep it on til then. Maybe I'll just change it first thing in the morning...
When internet bill pay works, it works wonders. When it doesn't work, it makes your life so complicated and frustrating. I wish I could pay someone to make me not think. I know that doesn't make sense.
My new bookcase is in. My cat ruined my new futon cover. She is so dumb. She doesn't learn anything I teach her. I knew I shouldn't have gotten the only one that was sleeping. Oh V, how you make my life so much harder. Poor kitty.
My cruise is paid off. In 14 weeks I will be lounging in a beach chair in the sun by the buffet with a frozen margarita in one hand, a corona in the other, and a sexy, half-naked man attached to my lips. Well, probably no man involved... but we'll see. Still a very good scenario.
It is always interesting to learn something new about life. It'll be so interesting to see how this thing with Dan unfolds. We will find out for real if the world is just and good or if it is just a random mess of happenings. I do hope it is just and good. I do miss him.