Facing Erica / Lady Tango...
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Erica Dawn
Date: 23 Oct 2007, 01:48
Subject: hiee
how are ya!?
To: Erica Dawn
Date: 23 Oct 2007, 02:12
Subject: RE: hiee
Oooh...I love you, I love you, I love you.
Am just so ashamed, of not showering you with attention, that I decided to avoid Facebook and MySpace completely until my work was done.
It was the night of your birthday, and I almost did a little count down thing, - I posted on your facebook how there were only 20minutes to go, in UK time....! But I was shattered from working, and instead of hunting out an e-card, I fell asleep - but figured it wouldn't be your birthday in USA time for a while yet, so it was still okay. Then I had only half a day's work left to finish all my video work, and thought I could do that in the morning, and do your happy birthday video in the afternoon. But it all took much longer than I thought...
I moped downstairs, and told my Mum I felt bad for missing your birthday, but she was like: "But of course, your work comes first."
...but I nonetheless amassed some guilt...not in a horrible feeling way, but in terms of amassing an ambition to do you the best darn birthday video ever. If it was all gonna arrive late, it was gonna be worth the wait. But in the meantime, I felt too ashamed to show my face on MySpace or Facebook, and gave myself a complete break from both for two or three weeks, doing nothing but striving to finish my video work. The videos were finished soon enough, but getting them online took a lot longer than I had expected...and without being on Facebook or ySpace with friends encouraging me, it was quite hard. I had only phone calls and emails with Lady Martina to keep me going.
During the process, I ended up missing Lady Elly's birthday as well, as she visited my personal blog on LiveJournal, where she saw I had posted about both of you, and realised I was waiting until I could make it up to you.
And yet despite finishing all my work this Friday just gone, instead of the energy to make you a fab video, I totally flaked out, and collapsed, and now I've gone down with a bad throat! =P Yikes!
I saw your bulletin today, I had been trying to resist the lure of your gorgeous aesthetic, wonderful persona, and all the fun to be had on your Facebook and MySpace profiles, until such time as I had a Happy Birthday video ready for you....but the thought of seeing you with blue hair was too much, and I simply had to click through to your profile. I sat there, earlier today, flicking through all your images, thinking how incredible it is that such a beautiful lady exists, and thinking how she deserved better than to be neglected for almost a month or so since her birthday. I checked out your Facebook too, and was relieved to see it was no longer "complicated" with Robertoe. It would have been awful if I hadn't been there for you on your birthday, and he hadn't either, but I consoled myself with the thought that you had him at least.
Back on your MySpace, I couldn't find a picture in which it was clearly obvious you had blue hair....I found one where a shard of light came in from the window, and showed spectrums of blue light in your hair, but thought that might just be the way the light shone on your hair, as it was one of your long haired pictures, so I assumed wasn't so recent. I tried your default picture - greeted with lovely pink, and glanced down at the comments. "Boobs!" someone had exclaimed. Yes, they were quite bunched up and prominent, but I liked how cute and adorable they look in some of your other photos too. One shot of your cleavage had the caption "i can change"...I wondered what aspirations for change you might have, and thought about career stuff, and what I was gonna do now my video was work was coming to an end.
But overall my thoughts were that I loved you, and you needed to be showered with proper attention.
Whilst tempted to write to ask which photo was the blue haired one [ your hair didn't appear to be visible in your default pic which just showed us co-ordinated pink top and pink eye makeup ], I decided to resist. It wouldn't do you justice. You needed something special.
I closed the window, and began to get frustrated about how I needed to shower you with attention, yet still feeling poorly, would look like a wreck if I made a video now - it would lack energy. Heck, I lacked energy. I popped downstairs for another strepsil, and wondered whether I was gonna do Joey's book, more video editing, or a job application first, and hoped I could be better later in the week, to radiate energy to Erica, because I love her, and I want to feed her with a positive source of energy, and go someway towards making up for neglecting her so.
I came upstairs again.
Toby Bricheno had finally setup his own MySpace profile, showcasing his music. Now I was back on MySpace and Facebook, I ought to write a bulletin at least to tell everyone about how he's now on MySpace.
But I couldn't send out a bulletin, before I had addressed Erica, could I? I couldn't bear the thought of thinking I was giving attention to other people on MySpace again, but still not to her. I also thought about you again, because it was Toby's music I wanted to share, and I know how you love Music. As I looked at the tonnes of application requests that had cropped up on Facebook in my absence, only your request for an application that would let me listen to your iTunes library appealled to me. Someone else said it before me, I think - but you have equisite taste in music. ^_^
I knew Erica would probably read the bulletin about Toby if I sent it out. I typed a rough version of it anyway, just to get it down whilst I was thinking about sending it, but I hesitated before clicking "POST". Then an email arrived.
"New Message from Erica Dawn on MySpace"
God, I loved her.
She was here.
Okay.
No turned back.
I would face her now.
And explain everything.
Maybe she knew already anyway...had she read my note on Facebook, and Bulletin on MySpace explaining about my video project, and not going back onto Facebook and MySpace until I had showered Lady Tango herself with love and attention?
Well....here it is. Here's my waffle.
Maybe you've noticed somewhere in all this text, is my heart too.
Maybe it's lost amongst all the words, I dunno.
But its nonetheless being sent to you in every message I ever write.
Even if I write this one with a degree of shame, for not being there on your birthday.=/
Nonetheless,when I click send, I send my love too.
I admire you a great deal.
Partially because you're beautiful,
partially because you're talented at showcasing that beauty,
but mostly, because you're here as my friend, and make me feel incredibly lucky.
I don't deserve your friendship sometimes, and yet you've written to me nonetheless.
=) Thankyou,
and much love.
(clicks send).
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Erica Dawn
Date: 23 Oct 2007, 01:48
how are ya!?
From: Erica Dawn
Date: 23 Oct 2007, 01:48
Subject: hiee
how are ya!?
To: Erica Dawn
Date: 23 Oct 2007, 02:12
Subject: RE: hiee
Oooh...I love you, I love you, I love you.
Am just so ashamed, of not showering you with attention, that I decided to avoid Facebook and MySpace completely until my work was done.
It was the night of your birthday, and I almost did a little count down thing, - I posted on your facebook how there were only 20minutes to go, in UK time....! But I was shattered from working, and instead of hunting out an e-card, I fell asleep - but figured it wouldn't be your birthday in USA time for a while yet, so it was still okay. Then I had only half a day's work left to finish all my video work, and thought I could do that in the morning, and do your happy birthday video in the afternoon. But it all took much longer than I thought...
I moped downstairs, and told my Mum I felt bad for missing your birthday, but she was like: "But of course, your work comes first."
...but I nonetheless amassed some guilt...not in a horrible feeling way, but in terms of amassing an ambition to do you the best darn birthday video ever. If it was all gonna arrive late, it was gonna be worth the wait. But in the meantime, I felt too ashamed to show my face on MySpace or Facebook, and gave myself a complete break from both for two or three weeks, doing nothing but striving to finish my video work. The videos were finished soon enough, but getting them online took a lot longer than I had expected...and without being on Facebook or ySpace with friends encouraging me, it was quite hard. I had only phone calls and emails with Lady Martina to keep me going.
During the process, I ended up missing Lady Elly's birthday as well, as she visited my personal blog on LiveJournal, where she saw I had posted about both of you, and realised I was waiting until I could make it up to you.
And yet despite finishing all my work this Friday just gone, instead of the energy to make you a fab video, I totally flaked out, and collapsed, and now I've gone down with a bad throat! =P Yikes!
I saw your bulletin today, I had been trying to resist the lure of your gorgeous aesthetic, wonderful persona, and all the fun to be had on your Facebook and MySpace profiles, until such time as I had a Happy Birthday video ready for you....but the thought of seeing you with blue hair was too much, and I simply had to click through to your profile. I sat there, earlier today, flicking through all your images, thinking how incredible it is that such a beautiful lady exists, and thinking how she deserved better than to be neglected for almost a month or so since her birthday. I checked out your Facebook too, and was relieved to see it was no longer "complicated" with Robertoe. It would have been awful if I hadn't been there for you on your birthday, and he hadn't either, but I consoled myself with the thought that you had him at least.
Back on your MySpace, I couldn't find a picture in which it was clearly obvious you had blue hair....I found one where a shard of light came in from the window, and showed spectrums of blue light in your hair, but thought that might just be the way the light shone on your hair, as it was one of your long haired pictures, so I assumed wasn't so recent. I tried your default picture - greeted with lovely pink, and glanced down at the comments. "Boobs!" someone had exclaimed. Yes, they were quite bunched up and prominent, but I liked how cute and adorable they look in some of your other photos too. One shot of your cleavage had the caption "i can change"...I wondered what aspirations for change you might have, and thought about career stuff, and what I was gonna do now my video was work was coming to an end.
But overall my thoughts were that I loved you, and you needed to be showered with proper attention.
Whilst tempted to write to ask which photo was the blue haired one [ your hair didn't appear to be visible in your default pic which just showed us co-ordinated pink top and pink eye makeup ], I decided to resist. It wouldn't do you justice. You needed something special.
I closed the window, and began to get frustrated about how I needed to shower you with attention, yet still feeling poorly, would look like a wreck if I made a video now - it would lack energy. Heck, I lacked energy. I popped downstairs for another strepsil, and wondered whether I was gonna do Joey's book, more video editing, or a job application first, and hoped I could be better later in the week, to radiate energy to Erica, because I love her, and I want to feed her with a positive source of energy, and go someway towards making up for neglecting her so.
I came upstairs again.
Toby Bricheno had finally setup his own MySpace profile, showcasing his music. Now I was back on MySpace and Facebook, I ought to write a bulletin at least to tell everyone about how he's now on MySpace.
But I couldn't send out a bulletin, before I had addressed Erica, could I? I couldn't bear the thought of thinking I was giving attention to other people on MySpace again, but still not to her. I also thought about you again, because it was Toby's music I wanted to share, and I know how you love Music. As I looked at the tonnes of application requests that had cropped up on Facebook in my absence, only your request for an application that would let me listen to your iTunes library appealled to me. Someone else said it before me, I think - but you have equisite taste in music. ^_^
I knew Erica would probably read the bulletin about Toby if I sent it out. I typed a rough version of it anyway, just to get it down whilst I was thinking about sending it, but I hesitated before clicking "POST". Then an email arrived.
"New Message from Erica Dawn on MySpace"
God, I loved her.
She was here.
Okay.
No turned back.
I would face her now.
And explain everything.
Maybe she knew already anyway...had she read my note on Facebook, and Bulletin on MySpace explaining about my video project, and not going back onto Facebook and MySpace until I had showered Lady Tango herself with love and attention?
Well....here it is. Here's my waffle.
Maybe you've noticed somewhere in all this text, is my heart too.
Maybe it's lost amongst all the words, I dunno.
But its nonetheless being sent to you in every message I ever write.
Even if I write this one with a degree of shame, for not being there on your birthday.=/
Nonetheless,when I click send, I send my love too.
I admire you a great deal.
Partially because you're beautiful,
partially because you're talented at showcasing that beauty,
but mostly, because you're here as my friend, and make me feel incredibly lucky.
I don't deserve your friendship sometimes, and yet you've written to me nonetheless.
=) Thankyou,
and much love.
(clicks send).
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Erica Dawn
Date: 23 Oct 2007, 01:48
how are ya!?