The Lasting Impression of Bev / Emotional Scars

[thefunkypenguin]

The lasting experience of Bev is this:
When you come onto a girl, you risk losing her as a friend.
I seem to always be scared of letting a girl know I fancy them,
Have been thinking how I use Bev to convince Martina I don't want to go out with her,
and I use Martina to convince Trusha I don't want to go out with her,
I seem very scared of saying I want to go out with anyone.
Of course, I don't really want to go out with either of them, I only love Bev,
but its made me realised how scared I am, of losing the friendship of a girl I really like, because I really like her.

Have been thinking about phoning Isabel, an old crush of mine, but if I did so, the first thing I'd want to make clear is that I'm not phoning her with any romantic interest, but just to catch up with an old friend.

'Cos I'm so scared of losing friends I love, by saying I love them.

I've lost Bev.
That's the lasting impression Bev has made on me:
I'd rather be friends with a lady I liked for life,
than try asking them out, and lose them as a friend.

I cross my fingers B will be my friend again someday, but I just don't know.
I love her.
And that makes it difficult for her.