Not burning so bright
Well, I guess life kind of cought up to me.
Today my mom and dad told me they pretty much were broke. They can't keep giving me money for gas, or even for lunch at school anymore, because they've spent so much. My personal bank account is wiped clean. My mom hasn't even been buying enough food for the house just to keep me on the road. I guess I've kind of fucked my family over...
College is going to cost my parents a fortune. I don't know if they can pay for all of it. I can't believe it's happening like this... Feel like I'm breaking down.
I won't have enough cash to make it to a 4 year college, I'll have to get an associates degree.
After highschool I'll probably either go EMT for a year or two while taking the college courses at night, or go full time college while working as a bartender at night in boston maybe. But either way... I'm going to be having a hard time. I'm going to have to pay for everything myself because the way I live has sucked my parents and our bank dry.
I feel alone. I feel a bit empty. I'm a individual who likes being alone sometimes, but like all humans I'm still a social creature. I miss having a relationship, but I can't do it now while I'm pursing things that are important to me.
Tomarrow I am going to wrentham outlets to check up on my applications, with my last 1/2 tank of gas. I'm not going to do my self portrait this weekend.. I don't have the money nor can I get the money for supplies. I'm going to skip school on monday and hopefully brainstorm enough to come up with a low price - low transportation - project for my class.
I'm so tired... so, so tired. I feel so weak... So hopeless.
Today my mom and dad told me they pretty much were broke. They can't keep giving me money for gas, or even for lunch at school anymore, because they've spent so much. My personal bank account is wiped clean. My mom hasn't even been buying enough food for the house just to keep me on the road. I guess I've kind of fucked my family over...
College is going to cost my parents a fortune. I don't know if they can pay for all of it. I can't believe it's happening like this... Feel like I'm breaking down.
I won't have enough cash to make it to a 4 year college, I'll have to get an associates degree.
After highschool I'll probably either go EMT for a year or two while taking the college courses at night, or go full time college while working as a bartender at night in boston maybe. But either way... I'm going to be having a hard time. I'm going to have to pay for everything myself because the way I live has sucked my parents and our bank dry.
I feel alone. I feel a bit empty. I'm a individual who likes being alone sometimes, but like all humans I'm still a social creature. I miss having a relationship, but I can't do it now while I'm pursing things that are important to me.
Tomarrow I am going to wrentham outlets to check up on my applications, with my last 1/2 tank of gas. I'm not going to do my self portrait this weekend.. I don't have the money nor can I get the money for supplies. I'm going to skip school on monday and hopefully brainstorm enough to come up with a low price - low transportation - project for my class.
I'm so tired... so, so tired. I feel so weak... So hopeless.