Christ
1: Parents might be getting a divorce because of me
2: I have no job
3: My car is falling apart
4: School is starting up - No summer reading
5: Justin to track down
6: Quitting smoking
All things that are on my mind, and tearing me apart. lets address them in order.
1: My parents, since I've gotten my liscence have taken 2 standpoints. My dad says " Hes not an adult yet, we still need to give him rules. " and my mom says " Hes 18, he make his own mistakes, its part of growing up. We give him guidelines, but let him alone. "
My mom and dad fight constantly now.. If they're talking at all. My dad told me today when we were alone.. " me and your mother can't do 'this' anymore.. I don't know what 'this' is, but we can't do it anymore. We can't work it out. And one of the reasons is because of you and bringing you up. "
Thanks a whole fucking lot dad.
2: I have no job. Prospects for a job are slim. I never made the drug test at Target, which I would have definetly made no problem. So I'm not getting one there. The stores I applied to I need to give more info, but I don't have it now. And I won't. For awhile.
3: My car's brakes are gone. My car's shocks is destroyed. My car's roof is tearing apart. I have no money to fix this, but I can't drive it anymore because of it's problems. Which means I can't drive places to give out applications. Which makes this a big fucking vicious cycle.
4: I need to do good this year, or I die. My future perishes. And it all starts with summer reading, which I haven't even picked up. School is on the 8th, and I have 3 books to read, and reports to do.
I'm fucked.
5: Justin and Nick got in a fight. Justin told Nick's GF kelly that he was cheating on her, which he thinks is true. Anyway, Kelly and Nick got in a fight. Nick left an angry message on Justin's answering machine. It should have stopped there. Nick said " I never want to see, talk, or hear from you again. Don't call me. "
Justin went a step farther and told one of the head teachers in our school that nick moved to Wrentham (which is true. Nick moved there because his family was. But he wants to complete his last year of school in the place hes been all his life. He was even doing football, a play and some more stuff. Not too much to ask, right? Senior year with your friends in your hometown?). Justin Took this away from Nick. He told the Teacher purposly, so the teacher would tell the principle, which outlawed Nick from going to school at AHS. Now he has to go to a brand NEW school, with NEW people, at a NEW town, for his LAST year of highschool.
That, my friends and enemies, is over the fucking top. He went too far. That was something that did not concern him but did concern Nick's well being, future, friends and family.
I talked to Ryan (a friend of me and nick) and hes getting a group of kids as a hit on Justin. Sounds good to me.
If I see him tomarrow, I'm tearing him apart. I'm going to punch my hand through his head so far it'll come out the back of his skull. A small argument is nothing to fuck someone over so bad about.
Here comes the Karma of the situation. Justin can't fight until he goes to the U.S.Coast guard in 6 months, or he is kicked out. Hes going to get hit, which means he'll be in a fight, which will keep him from doing something he wants to do. Exactly what he did to Nick. Now if I hit him, Nick hits him, Ryan hits him, or the hitsquad hit him, it's no matter.
He wanted to raise the bar, and we jumped it.
I wonder what his smile will look like when he's missing a few teeth.
6: Oh yeah, I'm quitting smoking. This is my last pack actually. I have 2 or 3 ciggarettes left. Then I stop. Forever. It's too bad for me, and my future invovles lots of running, jumping and moving, so I can't be gasping and choking. Its better for me, as well as everyone around me, as well as my future.
More updates to come.
2: I have no job
3: My car is falling apart
4: School is starting up - No summer reading
5: Justin to track down
6: Quitting smoking
All things that are on my mind, and tearing me apart. lets address them in order.
1: My parents, since I've gotten my liscence have taken 2 standpoints. My dad says " Hes not an adult yet, we still need to give him rules. " and my mom says " Hes 18, he make his own mistakes, its part of growing up. We give him guidelines, but let him alone. "
My mom and dad fight constantly now.. If they're talking at all. My dad told me today when we were alone.. " me and your mother can't do 'this' anymore.. I don't know what 'this' is, but we can't do it anymore. We can't work it out. And one of the reasons is because of you and bringing you up. "
Thanks a whole fucking lot dad.
2: I have no job. Prospects for a job are slim. I never made the drug test at Target, which I would have definetly made no problem. So I'm not getting one there. The stores I applied to I need to give more info, but I don't have it now. And I won't. For awhile.
3: My car's brakes are gone. My car's shocks is destroyed. My car's roof is tearing apart. I have no money to fix this, but I can't drive it anymore because of it's problems. Which means I can't drive places to give out applications. Which makes this a big fucking vicious cycle.
4: I need to do good this year, or I die. My future perishes. And it all starts with summer reading, which I haven't even picked up. School is on the 8th, and I have 3 books to read, and reports to do.
I'm fucked.
5: Justin and Nick got in a fight. Justin told Nick's GF kelly that he was cheating on her, which he thinks is true. Anyway, Kelly and Nick got in a fight. Nick left an angry message on Justin's answering machine. It should have stopped there. Nick said " I never want to see, talk, or hear from you again. Don't call me. "
Justin went a step farther and told one of the head teachers in our school that nick moved to Wrentham (which is true. Nick moved there because his family was. But he wants to complete his last year of school in the place hes been all his life. He was even doing football, a play and some more stuff. Not too much to ask, right? Senior year with your friends in your hometown?). Justin Took this away from Nick. He told the Teacher purposly, so the teacher would tell the principle, which outlawed Nick from going to school at AHS. Now he has to go to a brand NEW school, with NEW people, at a NEW town, for his LAST year of highschool.
That, my friends and enemies, is over the fucking top. He went too far. That was something that did not concern him but did concern Nick's well being, future, friends and family.
I talked to Ryan (a friend of me and nick) and hes getting a group of kids as a hit on Justin. Sounds good to me.
If I see him tomarrow, I'm tearing him apart. I'm going to punch my hand through his head so far it'll come out the back of his skull. A small argument is nothing to fuck someone over so bad about.
Here comes the Karma of the situation. Justin can't fight until he goes to the U.S.Coast guard in 6 months, or he is kicked out. Hes going to get hit, which means he'll be in a fight, which will keep him from doing something he wants to do. Exactly what he did to Nick. Now if I hit him, Nick hits him, Ryan hits him, or the hitsquad hit him, it's no matter.
He wanted to raise the bar, and we jumped it.
I wonder what his smile will look like when he's missing a few teeth.
6: Oh yeah, I'm quitting smoking. This is my last pack actually. I have 2 or 3 ciggarettes left. Then I stop. Forever. It's too bad for me, and my future invovles lots of running, jumping and moving, so I can't be gasping and choking. Its better for me, as well as everyone around me, as well as my future.
More updates to come.