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Boy is it tough to go from civil harassmaent to on the brink of crying so hard for the person you care so dearly about... Gosh it just seems like things get fucked up so quickly in my life... I hate it so... Just when I start to open up and think everything is perfect... But anyways yeah... So went to baseball and yep oh the good ol varsity boy do they love me... I sit there and don't talk at all... There's no point no one like sme anyways. Then when I end up doing my drills BY MYSELF!!! they throw balls at me. Isn't that just the best? ANd guess what the coach who doesn't even know this goes on wants me to stay so I can be the common bench warmer and team bitch... Fuck that put me in an awesome mood for the night. But it got better after I walked out and went o JV later. ANyways come home and yep here I am a few tears dropping onto the ol keyboard awesome... No Kat and I haven't broke up... But anyways it just seems emminent, that if I ever feel bad it seems things get ten times worse... But nevermind everything she is totally awesome and just cleared some stuff up which is realy good... so yeah I've dried those eyes... Anyways yeah I just don't understand why it's funny to hit me in the head wiht a tennis ball...