who am i?
today i saw a truly shitty movie that when i left i even felt shitty.
i won't say what that movie is because i don't want to make anyone not want to see it just because i didn't enjoy it.
a good thing about this movie is it really made me consider/think about what i am, who i am, and how i see what i see.
i see myself as:
someone who likes walking in the rain
someone who sweats when it's 10 degrees outside
someone who cries at the least appropriate moments
someone who doesn't believe in love, but desparately wants it.
someone who sings along to music especially when i don't know the words
someone who couldn't wait to grow up and now dreads feeling old
someone who is an escapist, who sees resolutions to problems in changes of location and classifications
someone who feels dangerously close to a breakdown
someone who (unfortunately) does not bounce-back from let downs as easily as i once did
someone who doesn't function sometimes, who completely shuts down and knows exactly why but feels helpless to change it
someone who is "crafty" wishing i was "arty"
someone who regrets or feels ashamed of having life too easy
i think i am starting to let the people i love down.
i am beginning to alienate people and i hate it
i am getting sick and it's my fault
i need a way out but all i see is brick walls
i think one is actually made of foam...
this isn't a pity-entry just a reflective one, i don't know if i feel everything i am writing but i am thinking it and for now that's enough.
stay well.
be happy.
make yourself proud.
i won't say what that movie is because i don't want to make anyone not want to see it just because i didn't enjoy it.
a good thing about this movie is it really made me consider/think about what i am, who i am, and how i see what i see.
i see myself as:
someone who likes walking in the rain
someone who sweats when it's 10 degrees outside
someone who cries at the least appropriate moments
someone who doesn't believe in love, but desparately wants it.
someone who sings along to music especially when i don't know the words
someone who couldn't wait to grow up and now dreads feeling old
someone who is an escapist, who sees resolutions to problems in changes of location and classifications
someone who feels dangerously close to a breakdown
someone who (unfortunately) does not bounce-back from let downs as easily as i once did
someone who doesn't function sometimes, who completely shuts down and knows exactly why but feels helpless to change it
someone who is "crafty" wishing i was "arty"
someone who regrets or feels ashamed of having life too easy
i think i am starting to let the people i love down.
i am beginning to alienate people and i hate it
i am getting sick and it's my fault
i need a way out but all i see is brick walls
i think one is actually made of foam...
this isn't a pity-entry just a reflective one, i don't know if i feel everything i am writing but i am thinking it and for now that's enough.
stay well.
be happy.
make yourself proud.