Life...
I realized something in the last little while, today really...and it actually wasn't that I realized it for the first time,...oh no...I more so saw it with my own two eyes for the first time, and actually believed it and experienced it. And this thing is ...taking life for granted, and taking everythign we have in our lives, and the people we have and love in our lives for granted. The saying..."You never know what you have until its gone"...is sooo true, and recently I found this out in a way that was so unexpected. This was found out thru a dream and this dream scared me very much. I don't think I had ever woken up in such a terrible and sad state, from a dream, sinece I was very young, when the reoccuring dreams happen. No, this dream was different...as everyone may say about a bad dream, but this dream seemed so real, like it was happening right there, right in front of my eyes and I couldn't do anything about it except watch it happen. The bad part about it is that about 80% of my dreams seem to come true...not exactly the way I saw it but in some way shpae or form, and I get deja vu in a large way. Every day I try to go thru Life being somewhat thankful for at least one thing. (One thing that has to do with the dream that is). I do not want this dream to come true at all, nothing from it. I sat back today and took a look at my life, and took a look at what I had and all the accomplishments I have made or am hopefully going to make in my future. I looked at my goals, and the ones I've already achieved. I looked at the bad times in my life and the happy ones...and I looked at my life right here right now, and everything about my life right here, right now! And basically what I got from that was I take everything for granted. Its a shame it really is.
And I want to thank all those people that helped me get where I am today, everyone...right from day one to now. And all those people that will help me in the future, you hopefully know who you are. My parents, my family, my sister and brother, my teachers, my music teacher Mr. Brennan, sax teacher Mr. Weiss, many teachers from st.chris, Flowers family, my grandmother who I know is looking down on me and protecting me every chance she gets, Talie, Sabrina, Andy, Carolin, Dony, everyone who has helped me thru rough times and good ones... I hope I can be as good of friend to you as you are to me, and my wonderful boyfriend Owen... words can not say how much you have helped me and made me realize how good of a person I really am and what I can accomplish. Thank you just doesn't seem like enough, and its not, not for someone as good as you!
Ok, so some of you may be thinking that I'm on some weird trip and that saying all this thanks and stuff is just well...weird...but believe me its not. Its how I feel adn what I want to say rigth now. If you knew the dream you would understand, at least a little better.
So I guess just go with it for now and accept the thank you...cuz I believe we all take life for granted and I dont' want to do that anymore, not as bad as I used to. So thank you to all of you.
Thank you hun...you mean the world to me.
And I want to thank all those people that helped me get where I am today, everyone...right from day one to now. And all those people that will help me in the future, you hopefully know who you are. My parents, my family, my sister and brother, my teachers, my music teacher Mr. Brennan, sax teacher Mr. Weiss, many teachers from st.chris, Flowers family, my grandmother who I know is looking down on me and protecting me every chance she gets, Talie, Sabrina, Andy, Carolin, Dony, everyone who has helped me thru rough times and good ones... I hope I can be as good of friend to you as you are to me, and my wonderful boyfriend Owen... words can not say how much you have helped me and made me realize how good of a person I really am and what I can accomplish. Thank you just doesn't seem like enough, and its not, not for someone as good as you!
Ok, so some of you may be thinking that I'm on some weird trip and that saying all this thanks and stuff is just well...weird...but believe me its not. Its how I feel adn what I want to say rigth now. If you knew the dream you would understand, at least a little better.
So I guess just go with it for now and accept the thank you...cuz I believe we all take life for granted and I dont' want to do that anymore, not as bad as I used to. So thank you to all of you.
Thank you hun...you mean the world to me.