This university sux

[thefrew88]

So I look up my pyschology mark online just now, and guess what... i passed, except i didn't, because they think I didn't finish my five research participation credits that are a requirement for this stupid course, when I DID finish them and have fucking proof of it too. Stupid people, so now my mark is currently dropped down by 10% because of

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I feel overlooked, was I really mean? I'm sorry

[anonymous]

Umm ok well it says Anonymous, but that's cause I don't have a livejournal thingy but umm.. hey it's Kristin! I feel badly for you that you feel no one cares. That must feel awful and I can't even pretend to comprehend. I'm sorry we weren't better friends this year, I don't know much about you but I have no reason to not like you. I can't help but feel overlooked though in your all too negative view of this floor. It's true, we never hung out and rarely talked but I feel like I should tell another side of this story. I know you guys think or ok feel like we alienated you, but it's not like you didn't help. As the 2 themed music floors in Deli, we eat together all the time. Even if you don't know the other person very well, people are generally very accepting. I'd always see you two sitting off to the side and I felt bad. Sure all the time I didn't go over, but I did try to talk and sit with you guys a few times. I'm sorry if I wasn't the most warmest person when we talked but I'm really shy. I thought we had a few good talks in my room when you first got here. Did you know you're always welcome in my room? You are! And I'm sorry to Owen too. You were the nicest guy when I was so sick, I didn't forget! But when you go in your room and close your door I don't want to bug you and I assume you're studying. Obviously you're not always but I felt awkward desperately trying to make conversation. I guess I didn't try hard enough or something. I'm really sorry you've both had a rough year, I've had my downs too (mono, Raymond..). Something that did bother me though was the floor dinner. I don't know if you didn't feel welcome, or why you left without saying anything to anyone but we all missed you. Everyone kept asking 'where's Owen and Marcie?'. I'm not just saying that, you can ask anyone, we wondered. I hope you are able to forgive us, your floormates for making you feel this way. We weren't out to get you guys and it wasn't planned. But if you think you're the only one who feels lonely, then you're just as ignorant as you're making us out to be. Everyone is lonely. No one can say they aren't. Maybe we're not crying every night, but we've all gone through a time when we didn't fit in, and when we felt ugly and like no one cared. Having the only single room sucks. It's a total disadvantage. Okay, so no bitchy room mate, but hey, no room mate. I don't think anyone on this floor really knows me. But they know enough to be my friends, and to care when I cry, and to hug when I need it. I can't tell you how I got through it.I just stopped caring about feeling sorry for myself and I started to enjoy the things I liked. It got better and I wouldn't change a single experience on this floor. I like everybody for different reason, and I can honestly say that. I hope you both feel like you have a better year next year.

Re: I feel overlooked, was I really mean? I'm sorry

[thefrew88]

I really hopr next year will be better too. I think it will. And I know I made thigns out to be worse then they really were, sometimes anywayz. Most people do that sometimes. But most of it is true. I feel bad that I didn't experience more or go out more or try anything out...but I fear rejection. Neither owen nor I ever fit in in either of our school thourghout our whole lives...we both alienated for everything since we were young so we really aren't all that keen up on joining the big group...especially if we were discluded or anything just once. I get hurt really easy, and that stems from my past...which I can't help and which I wish wasn't there. Yes I do think we had some good talks when I first came...and I appraciaste that very much, it made me feel so much better. I think the floor would have thought that when we left, but I didn't want to be in a place where I wasn't wanted, or felt I wasn't wanted, and owen just wanted to make me feel better really. That was totally my doing. I definitely know other peopl have their lonely times...but the one thing that you must realize is that this is a journal, and I will write in it how I feel for myself and only for myself to make me feel better. When one reads it they read my journal, and everything in it too. Thats the main thing. I konw others havenm't had the best of experiences either, but I wont write about someones else experience or anythign in MY journal. I konw we haven't been around all the people on our floor, but i feel that forced to just as they seem forced to hang around us. Oh well whast doen is done...and its almost over. Thanx tho