Dear Dadd
You make me feel like I am worth nothing. To me, I feel like I can never do anything right. It feels like there is nothing I can do to make things right. And most of the time, I feel like I really am nothing to you. There are those times when I do feel special, but those time don't come around to often. You have taught me much about life, but there are so many things that I hate about the way you taught them. I don't like that you are not forgiving, because how am I supposed to learn how to forgive and move on, if you don't do that yourself. There are times when I wish I were no more, and that is only because I wish I could get away from you, I wish I could inflict as much pain on you as you inflict on me. I feel like if I am not pulling straight-A's I am nothing. I feel like if I am not a perfect person, never arguing about anything, that I am nothing. That is what you put out. That is what you make me feel like.
All I know is that Mom would tell me that when she wanted to adopt another child, a girl, you were not thrilled, and you didn't want her. And that makes me wonder, if you really ever did, and if you feel like you wish you hadn't because I am not a perfect child.
All I know is that Mom would tell me that when she wanted to adopt another child, a girl, you were not thrilled, and you didn't want her. And that makes me wonder, if you really ever did, and if you feel like you wish you hadn't because I am not a perfect child.