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Okay, so it was going alright, then things just died. Literally. I've been having problems with my friends, and with my boyfriend, who by the way, dumped me with the trash. And I thought my life was over, (which it may just be) and have decided that if Anthony's parents won't let me see him (relationship wise) then I'm not going to attend South River High. But it's not all him that's stopping me from going there, it's really the ignorance and disrespect for everyone that really makes me want to transfer schools. I really hope I don't have to go there.
So, on Friday (the 21st) I was in my Spanish class and this girl who never shuts her mouth and is truely disrespectful to my teacher, finally made me explode. I yelled at her in front of the whole class, and asked her why she has no decentcy, or why she acts like a two-year old child when infact she's atleast 15. She was my disappointment of the day. But I recived my interim that morining which had brought my spirits up. As well as my English class. ( English is the best class, especially if you can read and don't have any ignorant childish classmates.) That's the main reason I'm in honors, not because I think I can handle it, no, that's not my reason. It's because I just can't stand the people who have not respect, who don't know when to be quiet, and I personally think that teachers should be a little more strict. But, you can't put to much stress on the administrators.
So at any rate... I have decided that I will persue my dreams and go into Nursing as my career choice. So, I must pass Biology with atleast a B. And that's not too bad.
I was going to go to confrence, but I had to screw myself over in the first semester, and fail two major classes, so now I must take them in summer school, which is so unfortunate. The confrence is the same wekk as the first day if summer school! Why could't it be a week earlier? Well, I guess this just isn't my time. But I have taken into consideratin that I am going to be a Family group leader at the next rally, and then in the spring, I'm going to run for Sub-Regi. (Southern) And then when I become a senior I want to run for Spirituality. But I'm not actually expecting to be voted for, especially because I'm not really like the others. I'm not really known, and I'm really out there, and just, odd. And that isn't a good thing. And I happen to be a perfectionist, which really screws me over, because in my mind, everything I do is wrong or never good enough. But I can change that. I just like thigs just right, so that everyone can be happy. So people can enjoy themselves, so they have something to rant about or whatever. I don't really care if I'm happy. Just as long as others are.
I wonder if it's bad that I care about everyone? And not enough about myself. And then when I do care about myself, I feel selfish. Damn, there are so many bad things going on in this head of mine...
*Peace--