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I'm sorry it's been awhile, the summer has not been the best. I've dealt with loss on two levels. On one, I had to deal with the break-up of the first real loving relationship I have ever been in. Sure we have remained very close friends, it's still hard to loose that part of my life.
On the other level, Grandma died on Thursday. I spent everyday this summer in Emergency rooms, hospital rooms, physical rehab facilities, and at the end it was Hospice. While I am glad she's somewhere better and not suffering, I still miss her. I'm also going through the end of project depression. This was a daily routine and ritual with her and now it's over forever. Also the reason why I'm here in Ohio is gone. I have no more grandparents, that is it. I don't know what the future will hold and how long we will stay in Ohio before moving back to California. I just know that for the next three months before I head to Dartmouth I will finally be able to rest.
On the other level, Grandma died on Thursday. I spent everyday this summer in Emergency rooms, hospital rooms, physical rehab facilities, and at the end it was Hospice. While I am glad she's somewhere better and not suffering, I still miss her. I'm also going through the end of project depression. This was a daily routine and ritual with her and now it's over forever. Also the reason why I'm here in Ohio is gone. I have no more grandparents, that is it. I don't know what the future will hold and how long we will stay in Ohio before moving back to California. I just know that for the next three months before I head to Dartmouth I will finally be able to rest.