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i have no idea what draws me to this stupid thing. but maybe it is the way that i can vent to others but really let myself be aware of how i actually feel.
i realized a few days ago that i really don't let people get to know who i actually am. i allow people to get an impression of me; any impression they choice to receive. it's almost like i don't care enough about myself to let them actually get to know me. so here is my request to others. try to actually get to know me. be willing to open up to a new opinion of me. i don't want you to erase an impression you already have of me. but be willing to change your original impression. it is said the first impression is usually the truth, but i don't think so. usually, for me, i pretend to be someone else and then once i feel comfortable enough allow people to actually see me for who i am-- which i have to sadly say doesn't happen all that often. for the most part people who think they actually know me aren't even close. it scares me to think that people don't really know me, but what scares me more is the fact that i don't think i even know me.
how is that people can not know who they actually are. forget that- i know how.
i despise the fact that i sometimes just don't know. but then i seem to forget it and continue living because, in all honesty, what else can you do?
i realized a few days ago that i really don't let people get to know who i actually am. i allow people to get an impression of me; any impression they choice to receive. it's almost like i don't care enough about myself to let them actually get to know me. so here is my request to others. try to actually get to know me. be willing to open up to a new opinion of me. i don't want you to erase an impression you already have of me. but be willing to change your original impression. it is said the first impression is usually the truth, but i don't think so. usually, for me, i pretend to be someone else and then once i feel comfortable enough allow people to actually see me for who i am-- which i have to sadly say doesn't happen all that often. for the most part people who think they actually know me aren't even close. it scares me to think that people don't really know me, but what scares me more is the fact that i don't think i even know me.
how is that people can not know who they actually are. forget that- i know how.
i despise the fact that i sometimes just don't know. but then i seem to forget it and continue living because, in all honesty, what else can you do?