What is This Feeling?

[thefireisblack]

There are things in this world that are beyond your control, like your past, forces of nature, taxes, and death. Whether you accept them or not, they're going to be there and they're going to stay until they want to leave, regardless of what you do. Going off the The Lion King from good old Rafiki, "you can run from it...or learn from it." In this case, a different solution was necessary and given my stance on the matter with this topic, not surprising. I wish to feel the following: What is this feeling, so sudden and new?
I felt the moment I laid eyes on you;
My pulse is rushing;
My head is reeling;
My face is flushing;
What is this feeling?
Fervid as a flame, does it have a name?
Yes! Loathing!
Unadulterated loathing!
You know how I dreaded the day I would have crush on M? Today I looked at a photo of him and to quote Melisande's words from Kushiel's Justice, "Yes. A thousand times yes."

Gods just shoot me now. This will hurt far worse than anything you guys can hurl at me for entertainment value. -_-