Kellie and Margaret fest 2005

[thefinalsummer]

So had someone told me today was going to contain a few things it did...I probably wouldn't have been too happy of a camper. I probably would've gotten a little pissed, and overreacted some...but luckily, no one told me that today was going to be the way it was. Today was actually really good. I already talked about my morning. I went to the bank, and got Caroline. I came home and talked to Zach for a few minutes. I got off the phone expecting a call back soon. About two and a half hours later, I figured out that wasn't going to happen. I called Kellie, and she came over. We took Caroline to meet Maria at Rockahock, and then came home and went swimming. It started to thunder, so we came inside and put on real clothes and started to rack our brains about what we could do. We watched Laguna Beach for a while, and then found out I wasn't allowed to go anywhere. So we watched more Laguna Beach until Kellie left and then I watched Laguna Beach. That went off and the Real World came on. Paul Craig and I ate dinner. And that is my day. That is exactly my day. I talked to Anthony and Sean for a few minutes online, but other than that..that is what has happened...but I'm not at all upset or disappointed. I'm not anything... I'm not mad, or sad, or pissed, or feeling crappy about myself..or any feeling of negtivity. I have no real want either. If I said I didn't care, it'd make it sound like I was trying to blow it off because I was kind of hurt by it...but I honestly just have no feeling towards it... I don't even notice it...even when I think about it, I have no emotion about it...but it a sense..it kind of scares me how much it doesn't bother me...

tonight? Hanging out with my brother..probably wasting away in front of the tv. eh oh well...

hi.low?

hi: Kellie and Margaret fest...TENNIS TOMORROW

low: I'm starting to think I should care a little bit..it's a little scary how much I don't care. I think I'm more upset about not caring than I am about the situation.. well it has to be that way..because I don't care at all...