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So this spring break has got to be the worst ever. Gah it's like every break I have I always feel completely overwhelmed. I am So angry. Actually I'm melancholy. Doug and I had a really good 2 weeks, now BOOM today it turns to shit cause he's depressed. When he gets depressed, it makes me depressed. So obviously I feel like I should just fucking kill myself. I hate depression.
...I always had a theory that Depression is a fabrication of the mind, and it is. But for some reason people always choose to have it. I don't want to feel depressed. I'm not like those wannabe psycho bitches who think depression should be an every day thing. No I'd actually like some peace of mind and be more optimistic about things.
...All my friends have turned into real Bitches and Pricks lately. Pretty much all of them. Not all, but many have. I think it's the ego. They want to be this and they want to do that but do they really take the time to understand life is a lil more then how you dress and how you make yourself.
...Lately I have just sat in my room avoiding every one of my friends. I have played the Sims II. Right now I think all I should do is stay home and work on my graduation stuff. I know I only have a few weeks left. 10 weeks in counting. 10 weeks and I'm graduated. So maybe I should.
...Oh gah, things could be worse though, I could be at North Forrest public school, with all those fucking ignorant losers that gave me problems last year. I could be in Camp Shelby YCP. I could be dead, but that's not really worse.
...I'm sorry for being selfish but seriously people need to quit with all their drama and shit and move on. They also seriously need to do something about it or just shut the fuck up. Especially the Pricks and Bitches who are starting to get on my shit list. I am going to tell them like I tell everyone else. If you don't want me to be who I am, then why talk to me, and better yet why even acknowledge that I exist.
For the record: For those that knew of Chaney Markus, he killed himself this morning at 11:45 at his house. And to those who think they have a hard life, Try being Kelli, having 3 jobs, going to Private school, and having 12 years of med school left.
...I always had a theory that Depression is a fabrication of the mind, and it is. But for some reason people always choose to have it. I don't want to feel depressed. I'm not like those wannabe psycho bitches who think depression should be an every day thing. No I'd actually like some peace of mind and be more optimistic about things.
...All my friends have turned into real Bitches and Pricks lately. Pretty much all of them. Not all, but many have. I think it's the ego. They want to be this and they want to do that but do they really take the time to understand life is a lil more then how you dress and how you make yourself.
...Lately I have just sat in my room avoiding every one of my friends. I have played the Sims II. Right now I think all I should do is stay home and work on my graduation stuff. I know I only have a few weeks left. 10 weeks in counting. 10 weeks and I'm graduated. So maybe I should.
...Oh gah, things could be worse though, I could be at North Forrest public school, with all those fucking ignorant losers that gave me problems last year. I could be in Camp Shelby YCP. I could be dead, but that's not really worse.
...I'm sorry for being selfish but seriously people need to quit with all their drama and shit and move on. They also seriously need to do something about it or just shut the fuck up. Especially the Pricks and Bitches who are starting to get on my shit list. I am going to tell them like I tell everyone else. If you don't want me to be who I am, then why talk to me, and better yet why even acknowledge that I exist.
For the record: For those that knew of Chaney Markus, he killed himself this morning at 11:45 at his house. And to those who think they have a hard life, Try being Kelli, having 3 jobs, going to Private school, and having 12 years of med school left.